Friday, December 30, 2005

New avatar and I'm feeling good

Changed my avatar to Bruce Willis from Moonlighting. I feel that David Addison is my alterego. I wrote all about it on a posting awhile back.

Anyway I'm feeling good. I just bought a portable DVD player with my 100 dollar Target gift card. It's pretty cool. It will be good for my trip. I could even watch movies when I take a bath. WOW! That would be cool.

I find it very difficult to save money for this trip. I don't think that I've even been spending money I shouldn't. I mean maybe just a little. You know I did buy my Sirius radio. I also spent money on Christmas gifts. I know that I will have the money to go on my trip when the time comes. If need be I will sell my DVDs. I keep thinking that I am going to have alot of extra money and then when the time comes, I find out that I have bills that are due. I'm sure it will all work out. That's what I keep telling myself.

It's that time again, and I have to go back to work tomorrow. I will not be able to go to the regular new years eve party that I've gone to the last couple of years. That is fine though, no big deal. I like to see all those people, but I can wait.

Well it's getting late and I have to be headed home. Maybe later before I go to bed I'll watch an episode of Moonlighting while taking a bath. Jealous much?

I know, I have no life. That's fine with me. Stress free and no worries.

Lonely yes, but happy as a pig in sunshine.

My grandma used to say that.

Sorry the posting is short, but I'll write more on Monday.

Enjoy life and be glad that you are alive. Have a wonderful day doing whatever you are doing today. We are only on this planet for a short time, so make the best of it.

I love everyone, except bad people and phoney people.

Smile :)

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Memoirs of My Christmas

First off, I hope that everyone had a fabulous time this holiday season. I had a fucking blast. On Christmas morning my boss, the owner of the company, gave me 200 dollars. That was so awesome because I wasn't expecting anything from him. Then at about 830 Christmas morning I was at Mrs. H.' house, and we all opened gifts. It is so fun watching the kids open gifts. It makes me smile. I had a suprise of my own from Mrs. H. She bought me a stocking and filled it with stuff. Roche chocolates, gift cards, Hershey's chocolate bars, and bath salts. So AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!
After that I played with Rylee and got ready to go to my aunt's house. My aunt had called me on the 23rd and asked when I was coming over to their house. I told them that I didn't think that we were doing anything until the end of the month. She said that she changed her mind and that they were going to cook food. She explained that I could just come over for a couple of hours and then go home and sleep. You see I had worked a 16 hour shift on Christmas eve. I wasn't going to get any sleep until the afternoon of Christmas. So, my aunt calls me when I was at Mrs. H.' house and says that they just woke up and that I shouldn't come over right away. I told her that I was playing with Rylee and I would be over later. I got over to her house at about 2 pm, and my uncle told me that they hadn't even started on the food. I explained to my uncle that I had been up since the day before at 230pm. He didn't say anything to that. I went ahead and stayed until the food was ready. I thought that it would be ready soon. We exchanged gifts and then I talked with my cousin until it was time to eat. From my aunt and uncle I got a 25 dollar gift card from Starbuck's and a 25 dollar gift card from AMC movie theater. At 645 pm the food was ready. After eating, it was 745 pm and I left and headed over to Mrs. H.' house. I had left my work clothes over there. On the way there, I realized that if I went home and slept, that I would be have been worse off. So I stayed up and hung out with Mrs. H. and her family. It was fun. We then played Trivial Pursuit and I went to work.

Work was fine until about 4 am. I really was tired at that point. After I got off of work, I went to get the free tickets for Santa Village. My boss gave me the tickets and a Christmas card that he didn't have the other day when he gave me the 200 dollars. On the way home I opened the Christmas card and in it was a 100 dollar gift card from Target. WOW! That's cool.

I went home and went to bed. HEAVEN.

I woke up and went to Mrs. H.' house. We went to pick up our friend Mary, and then go to Santa Village. Mary and her husband Cameron got me camping stuff. A hatchet, a knife, a multie tool, another knife, and an LED light that goes on my head for when I'm cooking or in the tent. I just now thought that that would be good for reading in bed. Oh also, one of the knives locks into the handle of the hatchet with a magnet.

At Santa Village we all had a blast. I gave Taylor money to have fun with, and went on some rides with Rylee. I got to ride the Mega Drop. That was awesome. I really enjoyed that. I rode it with Taylor twice. I rode the spinning coaster with Mary. That was cool because the roller coaster car just moves which ever way gravity takes it. So when you turn, you car is still facing forward but you are hanging over nothing while the car goes sideways. It was so cool. We all had fun and were completely exhausted when we were done. They went to bed and I'm writing this.

Other then missing sleep by going to my aunt's house, this has been a kick ass Christmas. Oh yeah, I got a covered wagon night light from my dad. It is cool because I always get the weirdest gifts from my dad. I never know what to expect so Christmas is always interesting when it comes to my father. Also from my friend Frank, who is also a supervisor at my work, I got a 25 dollar gift card for Big 5 sporting goods and a box of chocolates.

Such cool gifts from everybody, and I am happy. I realize that I need to give credit where credit is due and open my mouth when I'm not happy about something. Meaning that I should have told my aunt that I had plans with Mrs. H. already and that I wasn't going to go to their house until the end of the month. I should have not worried in my head about them being hurt about me going to Mrs. H.'s house and not theirs. I should have explained that I enjoy playing with Rylee, and hanging with the Hoil family. Plus that I needed my sleep. I had made my plans accordingly and would have slept if I had not went to my aunt's house. They would have understood, and if they didn't then fuck them. The Hoil family has dome more for me then anyone else, other than my father. He knows how important they are to me, and they should realize it also.

Soon though, they will be living in Prescott, Chip will be living somewhere else, and I won't see them out of convenience. Although, I could do that now, but I don't. For some reason I feel close to my aunt. Then again she's a fucked up individual that lets her son walk all over her. I should just come to the realization that my family is fucked up. The only person I need to be in contact with is my father. That would be good enough. Will I do these things? I hope so.

A couple of things to leave you with......

Braless women rule, meaning boobs rule.

A child's laughter is the best sound of all.

O. J. did it.

The Rolling Stones and Bruce Springsteen are overrated.

Thanks everyone for reading this long ass post. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. I love you all, like always. Mrs. H. thank you for everything. You are the light of my life,
the pain in my ass,
the thorn in my side,
and the one that makes me laugh.

You have a big heart, and I'm glad that I'm your friend.

Have a good day everyone.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Stocking Up?

A week before Christmas, and I'm not in my normal Christmas cheer. Why is that? I still have a couple gifts to get. Maybe that's when it'll hit me. Don't really know, but I'll find out. I'm in good spirits though. Although I did just realize that I have to work on Christmas Eve and Christmas. 16 hours each day. We don't have any extra guys to cover it. Oh well, it's time and a half and it's Christmas. It's worth it.

On Tuesday I'll go shopping and start wrapping gifts. That should be when I get into the Christmas spirit. I'll buy some eggnog and play my Christmas CD. It should be fun. I think that I may even buy myself a stocking. I know it sounds stupid, but I haven't had a stocking since 1989. I used to have one that said Boo Boo on it. That was the name my family called me. It may be childish to have a stocking, but they are fun. Plus I don't have a tree or any Christmas decorations. That would help. The trouble is trying to suprise myself with the things I would put in it.

Now I'm thinking that I may be crossing a line. I may be passing into pathetic territory. I could just tell myself, "I'm buying this for the stocking." I know that you are saying, "Well yeah, that's the only way to do it." I was going to maybe close my eyes and pick something.

Okay, I'm in pathetic territory. I should leave and give up the dream. Eggnog and a Christmas CD is fine.

Merry Christmas everybody.

Big smiles.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Virgin Mary, a giant ape, and my death

If you think about it, the Virgin Mary could've just been cheating on her husband. She ends up getting pregnant and then when he asks her how that happened because she's a virgin, she tells him that it was a miracle. An angel came down from heaven and it was an immaculate comception. He being naive, in love, and a dumbass, is so happy for her. He has no idea that she has been cheating on him. That's fucked up.

Then again, it could just be a MIRACLE. They say he walked on water and turned water to wine. Immaculate conception or cheating whore?

Saw King Kong today at the Cina-capri. It was so awesome. The movie lasts 3 hours, but doesn't seem like it because of all the action. You don't see Kong for about the first 45 minutes, but when you do see him, he is amazing. At first you watch him and think wow that's really good special effects. Shortly after that you forget that he is a special effect. The interaction between him and Naomi Watts is so heart warming that it makes you cry. Yes I cried. So powerful in emotion, and thrilling in the action, that it is a good old fashion movie. The love interest that is the most exciting is Kong and Naomi Watts. She is supposed to be in love with Adrien Brody, but you can feel the love between her and Kong. So great. There were a couple of things that I could've done without, but all in all it was a good movie.

Before the movie started I saw a preview for Miami Vice the movie. It looked cool. I was a fan of the original t.v. show and can't wait for the movie. One of my favorite directors is directing it, Michael Mann. He produced and created the original. The movie stars Colin Farrell as Crockett, and Jamie Foxx as Tubbs. Michael Mann also directed Collateral, The Insider, Ali, Heat, The Last of the Mohicans, Thief, and Manhunter. If anyone I know wants to borrow these movies let me know, I would love to share the experience of them with you.

Also saw a preview for Mission Impossible III. I can't wait.

Now the thing about mortality is that we are only on this earth for a short time, and we should make it count. I'm 34 years old, and if I'm lucky I'll live to be at least 100 years old. That means that I have 66 years to have fun and enjoy my life. It's kind of sad, but we don't think about it. People don't think about death, it's an uncomfortable subject. I didn't write this to make you think of death. I wrote it so you would enjoy life.

Seize the day.

Smell a flower.


Have a lovely day.

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

No morals?

The other day I had figured out a good idea for my mother's Christmas gift. She says that she has cancer. Now the weird thing about it, is that she happened to get cancer after her boyfriend died of it. Maybe it was contagious? NO, she's a fucking liar. So my idea was to tell her that I donated 50 dollars to Cancer research. I of course wouldn't really donate the money. She always says that she will send me money or that she sent me gifts on Christmas. SHE DOESN'T. Hence my gift to her. The joke then becomes two fold. Mrs. H. and I thought that it would be very funny. Our friend the ice princess didn't think so. She said that it wasn't right to use the Cancer foundation in that way and not give them any money. I informed her that they wouldn't know anything about it. She then asked me if it was okay to do bad things as long as people don't find out. I told her yes it was. She said that she thought the joke was funny, but that she had seen people suffer from cancer and that it still wasn't right to say I was donating money when I wasn't. I could not wrap my mind around the fact that she thought this was so wrong. That is when I realized that it may because I have no morals. There are things that I find offensive, but I also like to make people laugh. Therefore, I would go for the joke over being offended. I am still perplexed by why it is so wrong to say that I am donating money when I am not. It's probably because my mom lies all the time and doesn't worry about it. So why should I?

Something that bothers me, is the way the calendar is centered around Jesus. Why is he so special? I realize that I could make my own calendar or years if I wanted to. I could start the years when I was born. That means the year would be 34 A.B. Then again who am I to have the years follow my life?

I had a dream last night that I was in an empty house with a laser cannon and I was strapped in it and shooting it into space. The aliens were attacking, but I couldn't see them. I just kept firing it. I also had a laser gun in my hand that I was firing. Suddenly I saw three white dots appear in the night sky from where I was shooting the laser. Then the white dots had white streaks coming from them. I noticed that it was the aliens firing their lasers. I started to unbuckle my harness, but had a little trouble. Finally I got unbuckled from the laser cannon, and ran into the living room. I opened the door to run outside, but I saw to alien ships landing in the street. I closed the door and was going to peek outside, but then I realized that the lasers were still on their way. I ran to the farthest bedroom and waited. That was when I woke up. My heart was pounding. It was exciting. I was alive and thankful.

I find it very interesting the way that our minds work. It is like a file cabinet. When you are in R.E.M. sleep, your mind is filing the day's events. Before I had went to bed, I was reading the script of War of the Worlds. Hence the alien invasion, and heart stopping action.

My big trip is something else that is worrying me. I mean, I brought it on myself. I can't save money. I try, but not very hard. So far I only have about 60 dollars saved. Let's see, 5000.00 minus 60.00. Wow, that's only 4940.00 left. That's 1000.00 dollars a month that I have to save to have enough by May 1st. Last night I sat in front of my DVD's and thought about selling them for about 10.00 each. I would make about 3900.00 dollars by doing that. Only if I sold all of them. I know that I would hate that because I like that I have a collection. If I sold them, then I would always think, "Wow, I had all those movies." I am hoping that my dad helps me out and my aunt and uncle who are selling their house and their car very soon. Maybe they will throw me some money, but I am not counting on it. I still have my T.V. to sell if I wanted to. Plus the ebay "Sponsor my trip" idea. Who knows? I know that I hope for an easy fix, because that would be good for me. Although, no pain no gain. If I want to go on this trip bad enough though, I would save my money. The trip will definately be worth it.

Thanks for reading, and I hope you enjoyed it.

I explain about the Virgin Mary being a cheating whore, and Joseph being a naive pussy. Virgin my ass!!!

Also, a movie review of____________.

And finally, mortality. How long will I be on this earth?

Everybody have a good time doing whatever you do.

Diva Princess, I hope things are good for you.

Mrs. H., I hope you feel better today.

I love you all.

The Goings On Inside My Head

There are several things to write about. One of them is something small, and it's not my penis. HAHA. The other day a lady at work had asked me to walk her to her car. I said that I would. I had never met this lady, so I asked the front desk what she looked like. The woman I asked said that the lady had black hair and was wearing a white suit. As I was thinking if I'd seen the lady, a woman waved to me. The woman had black hair, was wearing a white suit, and was BLACK. Now did the woman not tell me that the lady was black because she doesn't notice it herself, or was she just trying not to use race when explaining her. Don't get me wrong, I thought it was really cool. I was just thrown for a second because I was thinking, "well I saw a lady with a white suit on, but she was black." It's like the joke about a boy and his father who get in a car accident, and the doctor says, "I can't operate on this boy, he's my son." People ask, "Well is he adopted?" The point of the joke is that the doctor is his mother. When telling the joke people don't think about a surgeon being a woman. The same as there being no reason for her needing to tell me that the woman was black. It would've helped, but wasn't that important. Maybe things are changing in this world.

A question that I'll pose here, and write more about tomorrow is, "If jesus was born in 0 and died in 33, and the time before he was born was B.C. and after he died was A.D. then what was the time during his life, D.C. During Christ?"

Just a thought that we were kicking around tonight.

I'll also be writing about moral values on my next post. There's a whole story that goes with that, and I'll fill you all in on it tomorrow.

Hope you all (the two of you) enjoy your day at work.

Love and kisses on all your pink parts. Thanks for reading.

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Jesus' Birthday Celebration

That's right, Christmas. Just got a majority of my shopping done. I only have 2 people left to shop for. So excited. I love Christmas. I'm not religious, but I am spiritual.

I just picked up a Sirius radio. It is so fucking cool. They have radio Korea, News from Britain, Canada radio, France, and the Netherlands. I can listen to news, NPR, music, entertainment, or talk radio. The only down side is that there are so many channels that I can't decide what to listen to. I am very happy about the purchase. I just have to mount the thing somewhere in my car. It seems that it is so revolutionary in a way that it could even take over for television. I mean Television killed radio, and now satellite may kill T.V. I just find myself wanting to listen to it in my apartment. I only bought the car version. I could take it inside but I don't have that unit.

Another thing is that I may be getting 8 hours of overtime this week. Totally awesome. The check that I just got was about $950.00 dollars. This next check should be over that. I had 14 hours of overtime last week. Groovy!!!!!

I was told to come into work at 4 A.M. this morning and work until noon. All I do is walk around the Hooter's building on Mill Avenue. They are having work done on their fire alarms, and we are to watch for any sign of fires. I do love my job at imes. :)

I am still trying to save my money for the trip. Although, it isn't going as well as I figured. I've been buying DVDs every once in awhile. That's my Kryptonite. Very bad of me. I don't know if I'm thinking that no matter what I will leave on May 1st, whether I have enough money or not. I don't think I'd do that. The problem is that I have a love of buying people gifts. I love to make people happy. I still need to sign on to Ebay and auction off the sponsorship for my trip. My aunt is not buying my t.v. anymore, and maybe that's for the best. I can keep it. It's a nice t.v.

I only have about $160.00 dollars saved. Which means that I have $4840.00 to go. OUCH! Things will change. I know that it would be alot easier if I didn't have my rent and utilities to pay. Oh well, I will figure it out. I'm going no matter what.

I love you all and I hope you have a good day doing whatever you do.

DivaPrincess you can keep Stir of Echoes because it is an awesome movie, and you will think of me when you watch it. I am glad I could turn you on to it.

Mrs. H. enjoy the music and you can listen to Howard 100 and 101 if you just find it on the website.

Talk to you guys soon.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

To be a Hero

As far as I can remember I wanted to be a superhero. I always loved Superman. He was the best for me. Batman was cool too, but Superman was stronger.

Later in life, and especially after 9/11, I wanted to be a soldier. I always liked that kind of hero. Never leave a man behind, and all that cool stuff. Kill the terrorist and shit like that. Then I realized that that was crazy. Soldiers are dying everyday, and not in heroic ways either. Although they are dying for their country, but almost in vain. You could ask the question, "What price is Freedom?" There is no price on it, and we are very fortunate to live in this country.

Then a couple of months after 9/11 I heard about what went on inside Flight 93. The men and women on that plane that decided to try and take back from the terrorists. Shortly after that I saw bumper stickers that read, "Let's Roll!" That is what an operator overheard one passenger tell another, before they all got together and attacked the hijackers. They were a group of heroes.

You realize that an everyman could be a hero if he or she wants to be. You never know what you might do until you are confronted with a situation. Real men are forged in the heat of battle. I have always believed in that.

Captain Smith of the Titanic was a great captain, but when he faced a situation, he choked.

Sometimes the heroes are the people that you don't expect. Then again sometimes they are the people that you always expect.

I just know that I feel in my heart that I would do the right thing and be a hero. I know you will all say that I would not, and I would push one of you in harm's way. I would not. Now things may be different if I was married, but I would hope not. I would then have someone else to worry about other than myself.

There is something that I wanted to write about that happened at work on Friday. One of the owners of my security company did part of a patrol for me. He wrote down what he did or oberved, and then I wrote it down later. At one of the properties he wrote that he spoke with a resident regarding security. Then, on a later patrol of the property, he wrote that there was a black male in a black VW Jetta that "said" he was a resident. "Observed him for any suspicious activity."

This made me angry, because that is racial profiling. The man was black, so therefore he may have been lying. Only black men steal. Tell that to the two WHITE guys that robbed me at gun point. Just something I thought I'd write about it.

Something else happened today that I wanted to blog about.

Tonight I was watching E.R. with Mrs. H. and a man was dying. They called his family and they all showed up. Mrs. H. asked if any of my family would show up. I realized that my friends would show up before any of my family. I know that my mom wouldn't make it, and maybe my dad would if he had a working cell phone. My aunt and uncle might, but I'm not so sure.

So then to go along with that, I was watching this movie about Flight 93 and I started thinking, "Gee, if I was going to die and had one call to make who would I call?" The answer of course is Mrs. H. There are several reasons.

She is my best friend.
I know that if she relayed anything that I wanted to tell people, she would do it word for word. (Many a time I've heard her retell a story, and it is spot on.)
I wouldn't need to share my last moments with anyone but her.
She is the only one who really cares about me.
Last but not least, she is my Leia, my Mrs. Zuko, my BFF, and I love her very much.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Sometimes you feel like a nut

For two reasons I felt like a nut this week.

One was because I was dealing with work schedule crap and South Mountain Patrol that I hate. The patrol consists of several places that you have to patrol. About 12 different places that have to be hit between 2 to 6 times within 9 hrs. After getting all the hits then you have to write a report for each place. I would just barely get all my hits in the alotted time and then I'd have to write reports. I stayed anywhere from an hour to and hour and a half finishing up. The bad thing is that I don't get paid for it. The good news is that I have 54 hrs this week. I know that you are all saying that I'm an idiot and I should have just not done some of the hits. I could have, but some of the places have to be hit a certain number of times and some of it is that I feel that I must complete the whole thing. Odd I know, but I am a Virgo. At least that is over with now and I can get back to my regular 16 hr shifts.

The second thing is because I sing really loud in my car. Like this morning I was in a good mood, because I knew that I didn't have to work that patrol for awhile. I was driving down the freeway and singing along to my Charlie's Angels soundtrack. You know I sound just like Sir Mix A-lot? It is always good to be in a good mood. I am happy and there's a smile on my face.


After finding that picture I came up with a third thing that makes me nuts, celebrity couples. I am so tired of the Bradjelina, Bennifer 2, Tomatie, and Nissica. Who cares who's buying what? Who cares who gets the furniture after the divorce? Who cares that Tom can't wait to change diapers? And who the fuck cares what they named their kid? I understand that for some reason people feel interested in celebrities, but I don't care about their lives off the set. Every once in awhile though, I will fall prey to the E true hollywood story or expose' of some sort. I enjoy the history of hollywood and the actors and directors in it, but I don't want to hear that Britany Spears was shopping at Barney's and spent $$$$$$$$. I DON'T CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Then again all the things I've stated above are things that I've heard. If I hated it so much why did I remember it? HHHHHHHHHHHMMMMMMMMMMMMM?

Everyone have a wonderful weekend. THAT'S AN ORDER!!!!!!

To all the friends I've loved before
Who travelled in and out my door
I'm glad they came along
I dedicate this song
To all the friends I've loved before
To all the friends I once caressed
And may I say I've held the best
For helping me to grow
I owe a lot I know
To all the friends I've loved before
The winds of change are always blowing
And every time I try to stay
The winds of change continue blowing
And they just carry me away
To all the friends who shared my life
Who now are someone else's friends
I'm glad they came along
I dedicate this song
To all the friends I've loved before
To all the friends who cared for me
Who filled my nights with ecstasy
They live within my heart
I'll always be a part
Of all the friends I've loved before
The winds of change are always blowing
And every time I try to stay
The winds of change continue blowing
And they just carry me away
To all the friends we've loved before
Who travelled in and out our doors
We're glad they came along
We dedicate this song
To all the friends we've loved before
To all the friends we've loved before
Who travelled in and out our doors
We're glad they came along
We dedicate this song
To all the friends we've loved before