Thursday, December 28, 2006

It's a Wonderful Life

First of all, I'm sorry that I haven't written anything in awhile. I couldn't get into blogger because I had forgotten my password. All is well now as you can see.

So Here We Go.....

The trip with Serjio was very cool. He picked me up at about 9 in the morning and then we headed East. My bosses were a little worried because I had just met with all my clients and they wanted me to stay in town, but they understood why I wanted to go. Serjio and I had been planning a trip like this for a long time, but never went. When my mom passed away, Serjio said let's go on this trip. So we did.

We stopped in old town Superior first. We walked around and looked at the old buildings and took some pictures. Then I saw a gallery sign. I told Serjio that we should go just for the story, and to look at the art work. We went up to the door, but it was locked. Suddenly the door came open and there stood a 76 year old man in dark blue scrubs with no shoes on. I said, "We're on a road trip, and saw the sign so we thought that we would check this place out." He pointed at me and said, "I like that. Come in." We did. The man's name was Jan Webber and he is a retired pediatrician. The gallery is basically his house. It was very cool. He told us the story of every picture in the place. He had drawn them all. He was an art student in Holland in the 50's. He told us of the children's book that he drew and is waiting for a writer. He told us the story of the children's book. It was very cool. We had a great talk with the man and heard some interesting stories. He commented on my Blues Brothers shirt that Mrs. H. had gotten me in New Orleans. A very cool guy that Serjio and I will never forget. Serjio bought a one of his pictures for 20 dollars. Then we left. We could kick ourselves because we didn't get a picture of the guy.

We left there and headed East. We stopped at a place and looked at old cars. Then we stopped in a little town and got gas and food. We were going to go to the Petrified Forest, but it was closed. So we went to the gift shop instead and bought stuff. We arrived in Holbrook and Serjio wanted to go to a strip club. Of course I wasn't going to argue. THERE ARE NO STRIP CLUBS IN HOLBROOK. So we headed to Flagstaff. There is ONE strip club in Flagstaff. We walked around downtown Flagstaff, ate at a restaurant, got a hotel room, and then went to the strip club. It was a nice little strip club. It was called THE JOINT. It was kind of neat, because we walk into the bar and we don't see any dancers. We ask the bouncer, "Is this a strip club?" He says, "In the back." We walk to the back, go through a black curtain, and there are the strippers. I thought that Serjio would have wanted a lap dance from a stripper, but he said no. He bought me one and paid the girl a little extra to make it a nice one. It was probably the best lap dance I have ever had. I thanked her, and told her that it was the best. Later I paid for another one. Then I paid for different stripper, but she wasn't as good. I DRANK ALOT. I didn't notice how much I had drank until I got back to the hotel. See Serjio was drinking mixed drinks and I was drinking bottles of beer. His mixed drinks were in small glasses. My beer was in a 12 ounce bottle. When he would get a new one, then he would order me a new one. I wasn't done with my first one. Next thing we know, I'm playing keep up. It was okay until I got to the hotel room. Then I threw up. Before that though, it snowed. It was cool. Serjio took pictures and we talked. Then I threw up. We went to bed.

When I woke up I went to take a shower and I threw up again and again. It was the water I had drank in the morning. We then went to a cool little diner in Flagstaff. I went to the bathroom after I ordered, and threw up again. This time it was yellow. It was scary, I had never had that happen before. Serjio said that it was stomach acid. I felt better after that and started to eat. Then I got sick again and threw up. I couldn't eat anymore. After breakfast, Serjio and I headed up north a ways and took a bunch of cool pictures. I threw up more. Then we headed back and I threw up finally outside of Chino Valley and that was the last of it. He dropped me off Sunday at 5PM and he headed home. It was a real nice trip, even though I threw up.

Then I was back in town. I slept for a little bit and then went and hung out with Mrs. H. GO FIGURE. Later on I went home and called the bosses the next day. I wasn't on the schedule, but they may have needed me for some other shifts or something. Then Monday night I hung out with Mary and Mrs. H.

Somewhere in the time since I wrote last I got a massage. Mrs. H., Mary, and I went to a massage place. It was very nice. I had thought that the woman giving me a massage was hitting on me or flirting with me, but she wasn't. I actually had the balls to ask her out, but she wants a Christian. TOO BAD FOR HER, SHE'LL MISS OUT ON ALL OF ME.

Then last Friday I met with a guy that I was interviewing, and my phone rang. I answered it. It was my boss.

What are you doing?
Interviewing a guy.
Well Gary and I are sitting here and we're playing a game, Dialing for dollars. I have 3 envelopes setting in front of me with money in them. Let's see how much you win for answering the phone. (He opens envelope) 100 dollars.
Okay, talk to you later. We're going to call the other supervisors.

Later he called back to say that none of them answered the phone. They all called him back. They only got 50 bucks.

Closer to Christmas Keith called me and wanted to know when I was going to be by his house. I told him that I would be by later that night. He said that he had that money for me. I had told him that I needed some paper work for the new hire, and so he invited me in. When we were in the garage he handed me an envelope. He said that that was for Dialing for dollars. I opened it and it was $150. I said, "Wow, I didn't know it was that much. That's awesome." He said, "Well if you think that's exciting, you're going to love this one." He handed me another envelope. I opened it and saw a bunch of green. I thought that it would be like 2 or 3 hundred like it was last year. I counted it. It was 600 dollars. I was so happy. He put his hand for a hand shake, and I hugged him. I thanked him very much, and went home happy.

I shopped for Christmas presents and did all of that stuff. I did end up going to Joe's house on Christmas Eve and Mrs. H. on Christmas day. All is good. I got some real cool gifts. My friend Joe gave me his Xbox and some games. I got a digital camera from Mrs. H. Like I said, many cool gifts.

Now, every once in awhile I thank of my mom. Whether it be her and I sitting and talking or just her voice, it makes me sad. I am not saying that in death she is a saint, but I do miss her. It's so weird that she is gone. I don't know. I know that I never talked about my mother that much before, but it's the missed moments that get me. I'm trying to capture that in my everyday life. Never let a moment slip by. I don't know how to explain it. All I can say is that I didn't connect with my mother when I could have. I know that she could have connected a little better with me, but the fact is that I would just be kind of ho hum on the phone and that is sad. Although I know that alot of us are that way on the phone with certain people.

The things that get me are this.....
It was usually her that instigated the, "I love yous" at the end of our phone conversations.
The way she cried, on her death bed, when I played Rylee's video on my phone, or told her how we all loved her.
That she nodded when I asked her if she knew that I was there.

Part of it too is that maybe I was too rude when I talked about her. I just don't know.

It comes and goes. I'm doing the best I can.

Sorry to end on such a down note, but like Dante in Clerks said,
"Empire" had the better ending. I mean, Luke gets his hand cut off, finds out Vader's his father, Han gets frozen and taken away by Boba Fett. It ends on such a down note. I mean, that's what life is, a series of down endings. All "Jedi" had was a bunch of Muppets.

Thank you for reading.

I love you all.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Memorial went well and things are getting better

I miss my mother.

The memorial went very well. I am very glad that everyone showed up. Even my boss Keith showed up. Everyone made me feel so good. I thank you all for that.

Mary said to me the other night that I said that I didn't know my mother that well, but that she lives on in me. In everything that I do and who I am, that is my mom. That was very sweet. It made me a little choked up.

Now for what's up with work. I did the schedule for this week and I didn't have my self scheduled. It was very cool. So far I only worked on Sunday for 8 hours, Tuesday for 4.5 hours, and now tonight I will work about 6 hours. Also today I was able to meet with my clients and find out how we are doing. That isn't really billable hours, but it's my job. I don't have my self scheduled for next week either. Very cool. I love it. Hopefully it will last. I only have 3 shifts that I have to fill. Saturday 3-11, 11-7, and Sunday 3-11. I am working on it.

Now for the real cool part. Serjio and I are going out of town for the weekend. Last week Serjio told me that he was off this next week and wanted to take me out of town for a mini vacation. We are just going to head East and then North. We don't really have a destination figured out. It's all about the journey. I'm so excited. We are going to have so much fun. We are leaving Saturday early morning. Such fun to be had.

Sorry that I didn't write more stuff, but I'm hungry. I will talk to you all later. I am doing fine and feeling better. I do miss my mom and I'm sure that that will never change. I have several people inviting me to their houses for Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. I think that I am going to Joe's house on Christmas Eve, and Mrs. H.'s house on Christmas. My aunt invited me to their house on Christmas Eve, but it's so far away. It's in Chino Valley.

Thank you all for everything. I appreciate it ALL.

I love you guys.

Cherish the moments.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Snowed in and miserable

I really hate that I'm not home tonight. Last night I went to mom's bars that she hung out at and worked at. I cried with strangers and it was very good for me. Just a little bit ago I found a hospital bracelet that used to belong to me. She had saved it for 26 years. I almost cried. I am supposed to fly out tomorrow from Witchita. The flight was canceled today. I can't wait to get home and be with my friends and family. It will be good. Tonight Rylee asked if I was coming over. I told her that I would be over tomorrow. I need to cry. I haven't cried today, just teary eyed. I walked outside to see the snow, but it was too deep to walk in. The wind chill is 0. I am trying to go through stuff that I want to bring of hers. I just don't know what all to bring now. Maybe her pillow. I am looking at her bed and I think that I will take that. She also has a Ferby by her bed. I was thinking of taking that for Rylee. I still can't find her jewlery box with the false bottom. I got a bunch of ideas for the song that I will play for her. It's a toss up between 2 songs. I think that I know which one to pick and why. The one that I like plays alot on the radio. That means that later on when I hear the song it will remind me of her. I am getting sad now. I am going to take a shower. Hopefully I will be able to make a flight tomorrow. It just sucks because I am far away from Witchita and I have to find a ride.

I love you all very much and thank you for all the help and support.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Your not in Kansas anymore

30,000 feet above the earth and I realize that I don't know my mom's favorite song.

The call came to tell me that my mom had been hurt bad in a car wreck. She was thrown from the car and then it rolled on top of her. Not good. That night she was given a 50/50 chance to come out of it. Later that night they were asking me about DNR. I said that she wouldn't want to live off of a machine if it came down to it. They said that she wasn't doing good. I told them that I would be on my way to Kansas in the morning. I went to sleep at about 4AM and then got up at 7AM when my cousin Sara called and told me that she would front me money for the ticket if I needed it. I then woke Mrs. H. up and we ordered my ticket online. She then took me to the airport. She is my rock.

My fear for the flight was that I wouldn't make it there if she were to die. I do love to fly though. I sat in a window seat on the way to Dallas and one on the way to Witchita. I listened to my ipod on the way. That's when I started thinking about the song My Guitar Gently Weeps, it's one of my dad's favorite songs, but what is my mom's favorite? I started to get teary eyed as I looked out the window and listened to Bad Day by James Blunt. Towards the end of the flight to Dallas I spoke to the woman sitting next to me. We talked about my mom, Thanksgiving, and other little things. In Dallas I called the hospital and they said that my mom was the same as she had been. Although, they had to cut into her swollen leg to releave the pressure. It wasn't until later that I found out that they were thinking of amputating it. I spoke to Mrs. H. and then I ate some food and waited for the flight to board for Witchita. On the way to Witchita the captain was a little funny with his announcements, "I'm Bob Johnson, and I approve of this message." Then in the middle of the flight we were flying between the clouds. It was so beautiful. Clouds above, clouds below, and us in between. That's when I thought about my mom. She was going through the same thing in a way. A life or death struggle with her in between. Hopefully it was as beautiful as that.

I landed in Witchita and grabbed a cab to the hospital. At the hospital I met Jeff, my mom's husband, and we went to the room.

It was surgical ICU, so we had to get buzzed in. Then I went to her room and saw her swollen face and body. I leaned down to tell her I was there, and I started to lose it. The nurse came in and asked me if I had any questions. I asked, "Is she in any pain?" I started to get teary eyed. She said that we would see a grimace on her face if she were. I then started to say, "Well that's good.", but all that came out was, "Well....." Then I really lost it. I hadn't cried at all other than about 2 seconds while talking to my father. I grabbed the nurse and cried so hard and held her so tight. She consoled me, patted me on the back, and told me that it would be alright. Then I was better, as soon as it started, it stopped. The nurse had told me that the Doctor would be in a little bit to answer any questions that I might have. The nurse left and it was just me and mom. I leaned down to talk close to her ear to make sure that she could hear me. I started to tell her that I made it and that everyone loved her. I named off everyone and appologized for not making it there under better circumstances. As I was talking to her I realized that her eyes were watering. I don't know if they were tears or just involuntary tears, but I would guess that they were tears. That made me very sad. I told her that this was the hardest thing that I had ever done and I didn't know if I could do it. I wanted her to understand me, so I would cry with clenched teeth as I spoke. Otherwise it would have been high pitched and incoherent. I told her to fight as hard as she could, but if she was tired of fighting then she could stop. I told her that we would all understand if she was tired of fighting. Then I reminded her of the funny things that happened to us. One was were her and I were staying at a Ramada Inn and we started wrestling on the bed. Well, we fell off the bed and we were being loud and laughing, then the next thing we know the maid walks out of the bathroom. She had came in to give us new towels and we hadn't heard her until she left. We laughed about that one for awhile. The other one was something silly that I remembered but didn't know if she did. There was an episode of Silver Spoons were Ricky Schroeder wants to be cool. He changes the way he dressed, he hung out with the cool kids, and he ALMOST dined and dashed. Anyway I had flipped my collar up and then walked into the kitchen with some sunglasses on. I then made the glasses flip up and down as I said a line from the show. She started laughing and asked what I was doing. That was just something that has always stuck in my head.

Her blood pressure was low and her kidneys were starting to fail. Her blood pressure kept fluctuating. It was going from 70 to 80 over 50. It's supposed to be 120 over 80. I kept talking to her as much as I could. Telling her everything. Playing Superman with Rylee, her moving back to Phoenix, and everyone loving her. The doctor then came and took me to the consult room to answer any questions that I may have. I asked her what had happened and what was happening. She explained to me about her hip and the hole that was in her diaphram. She had had surgery on those. The doctor said that all her organs had been tramatized and that there wasn't enough blood pressure to make everything work properly. Plus her blood wasn't clotting. They had already given her 14 units of blood. Also her urine output was very little. I told the doctor that I had asked the nurse if my mom was in any pain. Then I lost it again. The doctor said that she agreed with the nurse that there wasn't any pain. That was very good.

Then I went to make some phone calls. When I got back there hadn't been much of a change. Shortly after I got there from the airport, Jeff and his mom went to the bar down the street. Jeff needed to cry and drink. That was fine with me because I wanted my alone time with my mother. During the call to my father who was taking this very hard also (he'd known her since 1964). I asked my dad if he knew what mom's favorite song was. He said that he knew it, because she played it at the bar over and over again. He couldn't think of the name of it. I said is it by Tracey Chapman? He said that he believed it was. Then all I could think of was, "give me one reason to stay here." Dad said yes, that's it. It turned out that I did know her favorite song. Dad said maybe you can play it on your ipod for her. I explained to him that I didn't have that song.

Then I went back in to see mom. I whispered in her ear and tried to make her squeeze my hand. She didn't. I then took a picture of her. I then told her that I had some cute video of Rylee. She wasn't able to see them of course but she could hear them. I played Rylee in the bathtub swimming and laughing. I played one where she is wearing goggles and when I ask her to say something she says, "Poopy poop poop." Isn't that cute? Sorry it was so loud. I then told her that she needed to get better so she could come and see Rylee. Once again I appologized to her for not coming sooner. I cried alot. I was holding her hand and I felt something wet on my knuckles. I lifted the blanket a little and she was bleeding through her gown on her right side. I asked the nurse to help. She looked and said that the tube in her stomach was leaking. She put a new pad on there and changed mom's gown. I continued talking and holding her hand.

I made some more phone calls and then Jeff came back. We talked in the waiting room for awhile and then he went back down stairs to have some more beer in the car. He brought me some hot wings and then he went to see mom. A little bit later he came back in and told me that they wanted to talk to us. We went back to mom's room and that's when Jeff said that they want to unhook her from the tubes. He said, "She's dying." I said okay. Just trying to calm him down while I kept in eye on her blood pressure. He then turned to the doctor and said, "It's unanimous. You can stop." The doctor said, "Well...." Jeff said, "No bullshit, she's dying, and you've done all you can." She said, "We are going to give her 2 more units of blood and see if there's a change. I said, "Ok." Jeff said again, "She's dying Phillip." I said, "Maybe, let's see."

They hooked up 2 more units of blood. I just kept watching the monitor and my mother. Jeff went and sat down, because he almost fell down he was so tired. I then was holding her left hand during the first unit and again I felt something wet. I looked and there was a big blood spot. I told the doctor and she looked at it. She said that it was where they had cut her leg to releave the swelling. The doctor said that it was leaking. It was a couple of small veins or something that she couldn't really find easily. They put the second unit of blood up. By this time I had already moved to her right side. I leaned down and said, "Mom, you really need to fight. This is the last one, and they aren't going to put up anymore. If you're going to fight, do it now. PLLLLLEEEEEAAAAASSSSSEEEEE." That's when I saw the tears in her eyes again. I said, "If you can't I understand. I would really like it if you did come out of this. You or God need to show us a miracle right now. You need to get better so that you can come to Phoenix and see Rylee. She's so cute, she has me play Superman with her. I got her into Superman, I love that so much. She makes me so happy, and I want to be that happy every day." All during this I am crying uncontrollably and talking through gritted teeth. Then I couldn't breath. Shortly after this the last unit of blood was empty. Then I asked the doctor how they do this thing. She said, "It's called comfort care. We take everything out of her except for one I.V. and we give her pain medication through it. Then we let her go with no machines." I said, "Well how long, after you take the stuff off, will she last?" The nurse said, "It's hard to say. Some suprise us and last 30 minutes, and some are shorter." I said ok. Just then Jeff's mom came in and said that I had a call from my dad. "Oh great, he's not going to want to hear this.", I said as I went running to the waiting room. When I got on the phone I said, "You must be psychic." "Why?", he asked. "We are going to unhook her from the machines, they've done all they can do. There going to put her on comfort care." I explained what comfort care was and he started crying uncontrollably. I said, "I'm sorry." He said, "I was just calling to tell you to tell her that I love her." I said, "I already did that like 4 times." He was a little happier, "Oh good." Then he started to cry again. I appologized and told him that I had to go spend as much time with her as I could. Then we hung up.

I went back in and told her that everybody loved her. The chaplin came in and we prayed. After that I unloaded everything that I was holding in or thought that mom was upset about. I told her that I was sorry that I didn't appreciate her until it was too late. That I'm sorry that I didn't come out her sooner. Plus whatever else may have came out me at that time. Then Jeff went in and talked to her. He never went back in.

The respritory technician came in and took the tube out. I waited outside while he did that. Then I came in and held her hand. The chaplin prayed and the technician put his hand on my shoulder and prayed with us. I then leaned down and cried as I said, "I hope that you forgive us for this. I love you. You'll be in heaven now with Grandma and Grandpa." Then I cried some more. I leaned down to tell her to go in peace. As my ear passed by her lips, she gave one last exhale. The doctor said, "There she goes." The doctor then checked her pulse with the stethoscope and pronounced her dead at 3:19AM Tuesday November 28th. The day Superman Returns was released.


Now I'm stuck her in my mom's house with my step dad. Strange people that I don't know come to tell me what a great person my mother was. That just tears me up. I start to cry everytime I hear that. I'm trying to be strong for Jeff. I am trying to make sure that he gets the help he needs. Mom did everything for him and he has no idea about certain protocals. I spoke with the funeral director today and gave him all the information that he needed for the obituary. Now, I'm trying to think of where in Phoenix I'll have the memorial service. I also need to write something nice for it. Plus Jeff is asking me what I want of hers. The worst thing is that her friend said that she said if anything were to happen to her, check her jewlery box with a fake bottom. There will be a note in there telling what her wishes are. I am looking. Everything in the house reminds me of my mother. Her nick nacks. Jeff wants to give me this computer. He says that he will send it to me. Mom will be cremated Wedesday night. I think that's all. I will write more later. I am going to bed.

I love you all. Thanks for you thoughts and prayers.

Saturday, November 25, 2006

Things that go bump in my head

OOOPS....I did it again.

I bought my friend of 29 years an Ipod. He liked mine and that made me want to get him one. Let's start from the beginning.

I met Joe in second grade and we hit off right away. What pals we were.

Wait, I meant the beginning of my day.

I woke up in a very good mood because I knew that I would be off the next 2 days. I texted Mrs. H. to find out when the were going to miniature golf. She said that they were already there. I had gotten the time wrong in my head. Didn't matter though because I was off work. I talked with Rob and Mei and showed her some pictures from my childhood. I told her about my dog that I loved, and how I want another one. Then we talked about the history of America, Thanksgiving, and why Indians are called Indians. Then I took a shower and left to meet Mrs. H. and her family. I arrived there and we all talked and played games with the kids. Then they left and I went to Circuit City. They didn't have any good sales. One minute I would think that something was a great deal and the next I would turn the corner and find a rip off. I left there and went to Metrocenter. I ate at the Jade Express, I had Sesame Chicken on fried rice, an egg roll, and a Pepsi. I did alot of people watching and I love doing that. Then I went Christmas shopping for some people. I realized earlier that one was a birthday present. No, not for Jesus, for Mr. H.

I found a really cool Chucky doll from Child's Play. I bought it for Joe. As I was paying for it I was talking to Dakini on the phone. I then went to the bookstore to buy a nice gift for Mrs. H's mother, 3 books by Nora Roberts. After that I headed home because I had to get the patrol car back so my guy could start the patrol. On my way home I called Joe to tell him that I got him a gift that I could give him at Christmas or before. That's when it hit me that I was going to buy him an Ipod for Christmas. He said that I didn't have to buy him and ipod. I said that I wanted to do something nice.

I got home and then my worker showed up and I talked with him for a bit. At the bookstore I had received a free set of Chronicles of Narnia books for spending a certain amount of money. Very cool. After talking with my worker I walked to Mrs. H. house. On the way I stopped at the comic store and got some G.I. Joe comics. Then I hung out at Mrs. H. house. After that Joe called me and I went with him to Zia's. We shopped around there for awhile and I bought Arrested Developement Season 3. That was the final season. That show is the funniest show that's ever been on television, in the history of television, and it was canceled. I CAN'T FUCKING BELIEVE IT. Everytime that I watch it it makes me angry.

When we got back to my house I showed him the Chucky doll. It actually talks and is really cool. The coolest thing is that it's in a box like it was in the movie. He told me that I should keep it because I could put it up and he wouldn't be allowed to. We surfed the internet and looked some Superman stuff that he had heard was wrong with the dvds. He started to leave and I said, "Let's go buy you an Ipod." He said, "No, you don't need to do that." I told him that I wanted to. After I kept asking he finally said, "Fine, let's go." We went to Walmart and bought him a Video Ipod. I gave him mine, because it already had songs and video on it, and I kept the new one. Which is the newer generation. So that's cool.

I then schooled him in the ways of the ipod and then he went home. I talked with Rob and Mei when I got home and told them about the ipod. Well I spoke with Mei. Rob was........Oh playing his PSP. He spoke a little. I was asked by Mei how much I paid for the dresser that is in my room. I said nothing, Mr. and Mrs. H. gave it to me. Then we talked about how nice it is. THANKS AGAIN.

I then moved the dresser and stuff and then got on the computer. I just checked what time it was, as I heard my roommates alarm. Always reminds me of Dane Cook's joke.

The alarm is going off every ten minutes and the roommate keeps shutting it off. FOR LIKE 2 hours.

Then later when the guy wakes up, he asks his roommate, "Did I wake you up?"

"No, I always wake up every 10 minutes for the last 2 hours of my sleep."

You'd have to hear it. I don't do it justice.

I know that I am sick in the head because I buy my friends expensive stuff, but that's who I am. I like to share my wealth. I know that I should be saving up, but that's no fun.

I'm very sorry that I bored you with my long uneventful day. Sorry, I was planning on going somewhere else with it, but that will have to wait until some other time.

I love you guys.

I'll write better next time.

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

My life and the natural woman

Whether you like her or hate her I still hope that you can see that she is a beautiful woman.

As is this one.

Now, I wasn't able to put up my favorite pictures of these two. (Not because they are nude or illegal, I just couldn't find them on the internet.) The point is these girls are all natural. I know that you're thinking what the fuck is the point of this fucking blog. I want to read about his EXCITING life. What's with the girls? Well here it is.

A CONVERSATION had this morning.

Me: "Look at this."
I show him an Allure magazine that I bought the other day with a very sexy picture of Scarlett Johansson in it.
Him: "Who's that?"
Me: "Scarlett Johansson from the Island."
Him: "Yeah, the Island."
So then I go in my room and try to start up a conversation about sexy women. I left my door open and I'm looking at my two pictures of Angelina Jolie.
Me: "The question is, who's sexier? I think that she (Angelina) may be sexier. I think Scarlett is hot, but Angelina is sexy."
He comes in and looks at the pictures of Angelina Jolie.
Him: "I don't know. I don't think she's that hot."
Me: "I cut that one out because it was the sexiest picture of a woman that I've ever seen."
He goes back to getting ready in the bathroom.
Him: "You should get out more."
For some silly reason I get defensive of Angelina Jolie. Like he's seen a hotter woman than her.
Me: "Oh you've seen a hotter woman than that."
Him: "Yes, in California."
Me: "Well in California it's wall to wall....plastic."
Him: "They are plastic."
Me: "I mean fake boobs, fake lips, fake everything."
He comes back in my room and points at the Angelina Jolie picture.
Him: "I bet she's not all natural."
I FLIP OUT (on the inside).
Me: "I'll bet you a hundred thousand dollars that she's all natural."
He laughs.
Me: "Ok I don't have a hundred thousand dollars, but I have nine hundred and seventy five dollars that says that she's natural. I've followed her career since she was little."
Him: "You've known her since she was little?
Trying to condescend me.
Me: "I know."
He finishes getting ready and I change my clothes.
I walk out to the living room.
Him: "Sorry I picked on your girlfriend."
Me: "Ha."

I was upset more to the fact that he would think that she is plastic and fake. It's not because I'm a fan of the woman, it's because she is so beautiful that he doesn't see it. Allow me to go off on a tyrade that Mrs. H. loves so much.

WHAT THE FUCK????!!!!! You've seen way hotter chicks than Angelina Jolie. YOU? Hanging out at modeling agencies were ya? I've seen several women in my lifetime. Whether it be on tv, the movies, or in person, and I've only seen one drop dead gorgeous woman in my life. Her name is Jane. She is GLAMOROUS. I tell her that whenever I see her. I told her that, after the first time that I met her. So maybe in California you did see alot of beautiful women, but at least give Angelina Jolie the benefit of the doubt. It's not even about Jolie, it's about stupid guys that I know that can't tell if a woman has fake breasts or not. It's guys that think that Penelope Cruz is hot, it's guy's that love to get lap dances by woman with big fake breasts. YUCK! They make me sick. I know that I am obsessed with breasts, but hey that's who I am. I like breasts. REAL, Fleshy, soft, voluptous breasts.

One of the points of my blog is this......
Do you think that Angelina Jolie has had work done?
Do you see her beauty?
Personal feelings aside, who do you think is hotter, Scarlett of Angelina?
Last but not least, if you DO know anyone who is a beautiful woman, send her my way.

Now about me. I'm meeting a guy today that I am interviewing and probably going to hire. He will work Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday on the Alliance Patrol. Gary would like me to try to fill as many of the shifts that I work as possible. That would be cool. Maybe I would work only 32 hours. We talked about maybe me doing 4 days with 3 days off. By the way, I'm making 17 dollars and hour now. I like that alot. Plus I am off tonight. I will also be off on Friday. Things are looking up.

I love you guys and thanks for reading.


Have a wonderful day.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Ok, so here's the situation, my friend went away on a week's vacation....


She went to the Lamborghini factory and.........

Enough about her and her awesome as hell trip. This is my blog, and it's all about ME!

Well on Friday I was supposed to be getting off at about 8 PM. Turns out that guy Heath that I talked about. He called off on Friday night. SO I had nobody to work his shift. I had to cover it. I worked that day from 3PM to 5AM. I thought well at least I'll have Saturday off. So on Saturday morning at 5 AM when I'm driving home, my car dies on me. I pull it over to the side of the road and call my boss. The car turned over but wouldn't start. He came and we messed with the car a little and then we called a tow truck. They towed the car to the mechanic. I thought that that would be cool, because I would finally get my car fixed. Keith, the owner of the company I work for, bought me breakfast. We then talked about the work schedule and how Frank wasn't doing his part as a supervisor. I told Keith that I may have to work Saturday night because I actually had nobody to work the Hampton Inn. Keith dropped me off at home and then called me later to tell me that he had gotten someone to work. I could have the night off. I was happy. That was about noon. I received a text at about 6 PM from Heath telling me that he was quitting because he had gotten another job in California. 2 hours before he is supposed to be at work, and he quits. What a fucking loser. I don't need him anyway. That meant that after all the trouble they went through to get someone to work for me, I was going to have to work anyway. So I did. Then I worked Sunday night and Monday night. I actually had off Tuesday night. Then I worked 12 hours last night, and now I'll have tonight (Thursday) off. I'm supposed to work Friday from 3 PM to 11 PM, but the I should be off that night.

Things are starting to die back down. Starting on Monday, Hampton will only need 1 guy instead of 2. That means that I have an extra guy to move somewhere else. I should be able to move people around and fill my empty positions. Then again I always say that. Also the owners say that it looks like this other property will be added on to my side of town. Union Hills and 19th Avenue needs a patrol through their apartments. That will be another 50 cents to a dollar raise. I am so excited that I'm making 16.50 an hour right now.

Oh but then yesterday I call the mechanic to see if he's done with the car. The secretary says that I should call Gary because the motor is messed up. SO I call Gary, the president of the company, he says that the mechanic told him that the car was going to cost 2000 dollars to fix. We all agree that that is too much. I went to ask for a personal loan from the bank to get a car with, and I wasn't approved. Now the owners of the company say that they will try and help me get a car. Hopefully I can get a car that will be reliable. Anyway, just thought that I would keep you guys up to date.

I am now going to go home and either watch a movie or go to bed.

I love you guys and thanks for reading.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Getting things filled and missing my friend

Well I'm still trying to get all of my shifts filled. It was almost happening, but then the Hampton Inn needed two security guards every night. I'm sure that I already wrote about that. The thing that sucks is that if I didn't have this shift to fill, I would probably be fine. I have got the positions filled at the condos. All of those are filled. Now I just need to fill the spot that DUMBO Heath left open when he left. He gave his two weeks notice and his last night was Tuesday. The funny thing was that he asked me to write him a letter of recommendation. I told him that I would, but I didn't. Then last night he called and asked if he would have a job if he came back to Arizona. I told him that he might, but I would probably have his position filled. He sounded upset, oh well. I hired another guy last night but he only wants to work during the day. I can maybe use him, but I'm not sure. I had been working quite alot without a day off. Finally on Tuesday night I was able to have a night off. That was very cool. I went shopping at Walmart with my cousin and then we went and hung out with his 18 year old girlfriends. I ate and he talked to them. Then I went home and watched the movie Cars. It was a good movie, except that my friend Joe's wife said that it was better than the Incredibles. It wasn't. The other day I caught up on some of my special features on DVDs that I hadn't watched yet. Ferris Bueller's Day Off and The Break-Up. I watched The Break-Up with Mei the other day, and it was quite funny. There were things in the movie that she found that were kind of identical to arguments that her and her husband have had. I found Jon Favreau funny in the movie. Especially in a part where he tells Vince that he can buy a program for like 20 bucks that counts keystrokes. The whole movie is funny and sweet.

Diva Princess called me on Wednesday to ask me a movie question. I helped her out. I always love to help with my useless movie information, but I guess it was useful.

The final thing is that my friend Mrs. H. is gone to Italy. She will be back by tonight, but I will wait to see her until she has time with her family. I am off Friday night, but Mr. H. has off on Friday so that's family day all day. I will see her on Saturday, Sunday, or maybe Monday. Whatever day it is we will hang out and have a good time, like we always do. I hope she had a great time. I will take her out to eat and hear all about it.

Sorry I didn't write sooner, but I don't have a log in at my house to get on the computer, and I haven't been to Mrs. H.'s until this morning. Rob took me off the computer when they moved it into their room. Then it was keeping him up when Mei was on it at night, so he put it in the office. Sucks for me, but oh well. Who cares?

I hope that I didn't bore anybody. Thanks for reading. Good night.

Thursday, November 02, 2006

The Future's So Bright, I Gotta Wear Shades

That was how I felt when they told me......

Earlier in the week the owners of my company asked us supervisors who wanted a new property. It's an 18 story building of condos. I raised my hand, but then they said that Bryan was going to take it. I said ok, and went about my business. I kept the property in mind just in case they did give it to me. After all it is on my side of town (Central and Camelback). Well I had heard from Bryan that he didn't really want it. Then on Tuesday morning the owners called me and said that we were having a meeting on Wednesday and I should be there.

I said, "So I guess that it's mine?"

Keith: "I guess so. I don't know have you heard anything?"

Me: "I heard that Bryan doesn't want the headaches. I'll take it."

Keith: "Ok."

I still didn't know if I was going to be getting another dollar raise, or if they would give it to me in some other way. Well after the meeting yesterday, they told me that I'll be getting another dollar an hour raise. That means that now I make 16.50 an hour. Very cool. I'm happy.

We put an ad in the newspaper and several people have called with guard cards. Within 3 days I hired 5 people. I am getting close to having everything covered. I know that I've said that before, but this time it will work.

I'm sorry that you know all this already Mrs. H., but I wanted to write something on my blog. I would write other things but I can't think of anything else. I am tired. I had to come back here and get my cell phone.

I know something that happened.
Mrs. H. got a pink ipod just in time for her trip to Italy. It's really cool. She said that she wanted it and she was going to buy it for herself, but I like doing nice things for her. I bought it online and had it engraved. She likes it alot, which makes me feel good.

I'm very tired. I am going to go home and go to bed now. Good night all.

Mrs. H. I'll see you tonight. CHALLENGE!

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

My ancestor was Charlemagne and I'm a fucking account manager for a security company

WOW, how the mighty have fallen. I was supposed to have the weekend off and all I got was Friday. Then I started thinking well I don't necessarily need the weekend off, I could take some days in the middle of the week. So I arranged to have Monday and Tuesday off. I was happy for about 2 seconds. I thought that I would get to finally hang out with Mrs. H. and watch our shows and just plain have fun. Fat chance. I received a call from the President of the company telling me that I had to get someone to cover the Buttes for a ballroom function. They had covered 1030PM to 630AM, but needed someone to cover from 6PM to 1030PM. Keep in mind that they called me at 340PM to tell me this. I tried to figure out a way, but it was no use. Everyone was already working. That meant that I had to work it. I got ready and went to work. The bad thing was that I wasn't going to be able to hang out with Mrs. H. When I showed up at the Buttes they told me to watch the parking lot. Which is a fucking easy job. I sat at the entrance of the property in my car. I was parked strategically so that I could see everyone who came onto the property. I played Tetris on my ipod, watched an episode of It's always sunny in Philadelphia, watched some music videos, read a Premiere magazine, and listened to the Howard Stern show. It's times like that that I think, "Wow, I'm getting paid 15.50 an hour to do this? What a job." Granted that there are the times when I have worked over the 40 hours and I don't get paid for it, but mostly it's about like this. Everyday that I do work I think about how pretty easy the job is. It only sucks when I get called away from my plans to fill a spot or whatever.

Now the other thing that sucked tonight was the fact that my guy misunderstood me about what he was supposed to work on Monday night. I had told him that he was going to work 12 hours on Monday, and 9 on Tuesday. He told me that he had written down what I gave him, and it was 7 hours on Monday, and 12 on Tuesday. I straightened it out with him except that then I had to work 2 hours at Morgan Park apartment complex after I left the Buttes. The good news is that on Tuesday I will only work 2 hours instead of 5. That is cool. Now the next thing to worry about is getting someone to work on Saturday at the Airport Hilton for 16 hours, and Sunday for 8 hours. Like always, I'm sure that it will all work out.

Other than that, I watched all of MY shows and now all Mrs. H. and I have to do is watch her and I shows. Now I'm going to go home and either watch a movie or go right to bed. I will then hang out with Mrs. H. and watch t.v. All is well.

Once again, Love and kisses on all your pink parts.
I love you.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Write something!

Diva Princess and Mrs. H. told me that I haven't written on my blog in awhile. I realized that it has been along time. I am glad that my groupies are eagerly awaiting my writing. So here it is.....

Well the last time that I wrote anything I was trying to get Saturday off. Here it is a week later and I'm still trying to get Saturday off. I am short a guy or two. This guy Casey that was working for me said that he was available to work more hours. Then the next day, he didn't show up for work. I called him that night and the next day to give him one more chance and all I got was his voice mail. Oh well. Tough shit for you kid. I also have to cover the Buttes again this week. That's not that big of a deal because I have another supervisor helping me out. I almost wouldn't have had Friday off, but Keith helped me out and made the guy work. That was cool. I also found out today that I will probably be getting a new account. That means another 50 cents to a dollar raise. How fucking cool. The owners gave me a fax machine today. I will be using that to send one of the property's reports. Also I can send in my payroll without worrying about trying to get to Keith's house on the other side of town.

Other than that Mei had a job interview this week in Maryland and Rob wants me to move my tv into my room. That's fine with me because then I don't have to put up with questions or small talk while I'm trying to watch a movie. The only bad thing is the sound. I've told them that I like watching movies when I get home early in the morning. They are still asleep, and I would hate to wake them. Who knows.

Other things are that I haven't spoken to my friend Stephanie in awhile. She called me when she broke up with her boyfriend, but then she didn't call me anymore. Her cell phone is turned off and I was talking to her at her mom's cousin's house. Well I finally heard from her through myspace and she is fine. Good to know.

I also got a lovely text from Mrs. H. the other day that said that she missed me. We used to hang out all the time and she told me that maybe it was too much, but we do miss eachother. I hang out a little here and there, but nothing like what we used to do. I am trying to really work it out to where I will be available more. I am going to try and knock my work week down to 32 hours or something and do all my client stuff during one day. That will be much better. I need to just hire more people and focus more on my clients then on my days off. It is the end of the fiscal year and this is when other security companies are trying to bid for our work. I need to be talking with the clients and making sure that they are happy. If I lose accounts, I lose money.

So now we are caught up to Friday. I went to bed at about 5:30AM and was going to wake up at 11 AM so I could go work out at noon. (I didn't work out all week.) Well my alarm went off, I thought about for a second, and then I rolled over and went back to sleep. I then woke up at 2:30 and had a message from Gary the president of the company. He informed me that one of the security vehicles was ready to be picked up. It was in fact the one that Heath wrecked when he ran over that huge rock. I drank my coffee and then Gary and Keith picked me up. We talked about the upcoming account and my other accounts. Then we waited for the car. Gary had to go get tires for another vehicle. Keith and I stayed at the mechanic's shop. He told us the car was ready, but when he got in to turn it on, it wouldn't start. He tried working on it and then told us that we would have to wait until Monday. That meant that it was useless for me to have even went there because the car wasn't ready, but who knew. Anyway, Keith and I go to meet with Gary at a diner that is next to discount tire company and I have coffee and fried zuchinni and mushrooms. Then Gary takes me home. At home I put on one of my DVDs that I got from Blockbuster while I'm making calls for work. The movie is a weird sexploitation movie called ILSA: She wolf of the SS.

It has naked women being tortured in a Nazi prison camp. I know that it doesn't sound funny, but it an exploitation film. It was made in 1974 and meant to attract the guys that want to see women naked. Granted I do love that they all have natural breasts. This was the 70's after all. Although, I do believe that this was meant for the weirder crowd of guys who like to see their women's nipples clamped and pubes shaved. Plus other weird stuff that I won't get into, and I haven't even watched half the movie yet. Then Mrs. H. calls me and asks if I'm coming over. I said yes, because I missed her as well. I knew that Joe and I had plans for later that night to go watch Flags of Our Fathers. I then got ready and went to Mrs. H.'s house. When I arrived they were on the way to McD's and I went with them. After eating we headed back to Mrs. H. house. I stopped at Blockbuster along with Todd and Steph and rented two movies. The Proposition and District B-13. I arrived at Mrs. H. house and we talked a bit and then I had to go meet Joe at the Cine-Capri. (My favorite movie theater.)

I met Joe and he had already bought my ticket. I buy his alot so he returned the favor. I then went to the concession stand to get some candy and a drink. As I was in line one of the workers yells out that he can help me where he is. As I begin to go over to him, he makes like he's fishing and is reeling me in. I jog over to where he is and I make a stupid little gesture as if the hook is in my mouth. Then I order a Pepsi and Bunch a Crunch. He then sees my shirt and says, "Are you going to blog this?" I said, "Yes, I will now. What's your name?" As I look at his name tag and find out. I say, "Ben.", just as he says his name. I said okay, I'm going to blog about you. So there it was. Joe and I talked a bit and then the movie started. It was a good movie. It showed that the men that put this flag up weren't necessarily heroes, but everyone was in there own way. They were just doing a job. It was expaining that, "hero" is a name that we put on people. Although, the definition of hero is different for each person, some are deserving and some are not. Some of the greatest heroes we will never hear about.

Speaking of heroes. The movie United 93 is very good. One of the best movies of 2006. It is powerful and heartwarming. I had seen all the documenatries about flight 93, but this was the best.

Mrs. H. I miss you very much.
Diva Princess it was nice seeing you and your family tonight.
If anyone else reads this I hope you are in a good place in your life.

I love you guys.
I'm sorry that I assumed on my last post that people loved me.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Filling spots and moving pieces

Well at least I had one weekend off. That was nice.

I received a call from the president of the company telling me that the Buttes need security on Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and Wednesday. He told me this on Thursday night. OUCH!

I was supposed to be off on Friday, but now I would have to move the guy that was going to the Airport Hilton to the Buttes. That would mean that the Airport Hilton had to be filled. I thought that I would hire a guy that I had been talking to on the phone that needs a job, and put him at the Airport Hilton. I spoke to him on Friday day and we were supposed to meet. Well he never called me back. So here I am at the Airport Hilton. Now I just have to figure out how to move my guys around to cover the other days. What sucks is that I'm supposed to be off on Saturday. As of now, it doesn't look too likely. I am trying. In fact, when I'm done writing this I am going to try and figure out a way. I believe that I can do it. One of the other supervisors is helping me out on Monday. I can probably cover everything but Saturday. That's the tough one.

Anyway, we went and saw Taylor play in the band at a Greenway High School football game. It was cool. I would think that he felt good about it. We all cheered and told him later how good he did. After that Mrs. H. tried to peddle her Avon to me. She's a crazy little sales woman. I bought it hook, line, and sinker. I think my mom will like it. She will just be so happy that she got something from me. Dad gets a DVD player with surround sound and she gets a 20 dollar thing of make-up. Too funny. Oh well.

On Saturday the H family was going to go to the zoo, and they asked me if I wanted to go. Then it started raining last night and the news says that it will be raining all day. I guess no zoo. Boo Hoo!

Don't know what I'll do on Sunday. Maybe move my big screen t.v. into my room. That would be cool. Then I wouldn't have to sit in the living room and watch movies. I really don't think that my t.v. will fit through my door, but Rob believes that it will. We'll find out.

Other than that, things are going good in my world. I am happy and I have alot of friends that love me and I love them.

Take care everyone.

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Finally a day off

Well the bad day started on Friday morning. I got off work at about 630 AM and was supposed to go work out at noon. Well I ended up getting a phone call from my boss. I didn't answer because I figured he would leave a message. Well Frank called me, so I answered, and it turns out that I was supposed to hand in the hours for my guys. I told Frank that I was going to sleep a little longer and then I would go to Frank's. I woke up at 1040 AM and took my time sheet to the owner Keith. He sent it in to the people that he had to and I spoke to him about work. Then the co-owner came in. We talked about what to do about a security vehicle that one of my people messed up. One of the other guys brought a security vehicle for me and I used that. It was brought to the Airport Hilton and I took it home from there. I would be brought to pick up my car later.

We had a slight meeting, but that was over at 5 PM. I then went home and called my friend Joe. We were going to see the Departed on Friday night at 11 pm. When I got home, I received a call that said that one of my workers was not going to make it to work. Fucking people. I was pissed, because that meant that I was going to miss Friday and Saturday with my friends. I was pissed for about a second, then I realized that I could get someone to work it, and that's what I did. After that i went to Mrs. H. house to watch a little television. That's when she fell asleep. Goodtimes had by me. She's a real sound sleeper, if you know what I mean? She woke up when I was ready to leave.

I used Mrs. H. van to meet my friend Joe and go see the Departed. It was a great movie. Joe and I talked about the movie, and then he and I exchanged movies of our own. Then I surfed the internet for a Superman costume, porn, and new sirius radios called stilletos. Okay, and more porn. I then walked home because my car was at the owners house. I finally went to bed at about 5 am. That was my crazy but fun night off.

Then came Saturday. Well, I knew that I didn't have anyone to fill in for Saturday night at the Airport. The first thing that I did when I woke up was ask my father if he wanted to work overtime. He said yes. The shift was then covered. I then just relaxed on my bed listening to my ipod alarm clock. After that I made a cup of coffee, and hung out with more music. Then I went outside and talked to Rob about his car. Finally I went in the house and called my boss to ask him to come and pick me up. He was supposed to give me a ride back to my car. Finally I headed to Serjio's house. I talked with the kids and looked at the temporary house. Yvette, Serjio, and I hung out and talked about ipods and movies. Fun time.

I am now leaving. Serjio is in bed and I am going to head home. This has been a wonderful weekend. I had a great time. I will talk to you later. I am very happy. I am sorry that I couldn't hang out with you all today. I will talk to you all soon. I love you all.

Mrs. H. you are the one that makes me get through my day.
You make me laugh.
You make me feel good when I am with you.
We are symbiotic in all ways, and I love that.
We needn't explain anything to anyone.
I love you sister/friend, with all my heart.

EVERYONE have a GREAT day.

Thursday, October 05, 2006

It's been awhile.....

I went on my business trip to San Diego. Me and the other 3 supervisors drove up. It was a nice drive. When we got there Keith and Gary had beers waiting for us. We drank and ate that night. The next day we went to a restaurant on Mission Beach. It was so nice to sit out on the porch, watch the surfers and joggers, eat breakfast, and drink coffee. AWESOME. Then we went to the convention center, signed in, and took some classes. Pretty cool. That night Bryan, John, and I went for a dinner party on the MIDWAY. That's right, the Midway. It's an aircraft carrier that was in service during WWII. It was cool. It's a museum now, but it was cool to be walking in history. I went on a tour and went to the flight deck. I sat in the command chairs just so I was then sitting in history. It was fun. After being there for 3 hours, Keith and Gary took us to a hotel bar that was on the 40th floor. That was awesome. We then went back to the hotel and drank some more. The next day we had breakfast again at the same place, and went to the convention center for our last day of classes. Then we headed home. We got back at midnight.
The trip was a blast.

Before the trip, the owners told me that I had another property. That's the one I was telling you about. It's worth a dollar, but I told them to split it and give 50 cents to my cousin. So now I am making 15.50 an hour. I am very excited. Although the raise wasn't on this last check, but it'll be on the next one.

Other than that, I have all my posts filled. I hired 3 or 4 new guys. I told them that I will start them at 10.50 an hour. Also I arranged it so that my cousin Chip will be my second in command. That means that I can have off Friday and Saturday and not be bothered by phone calls. He will take all the phone calls. So very cool. It's my first weekend off in a long time. I am going on Friday to see the Departed with Joe. Then on Saturday I am going to Serjio's house to hang out with him and his family.

Other than that I am still having a good time. It makes me happy that I got Rylee into Superman, because now she's into ALL things Superman. She watches Superman the Movie and Superman II all the time. She loves them. She always wants me to watch them with her. At this moment she is watching Superman the Animated Series Volume One that I brought over. It's cute because when I first brought it over to show it to her, I told her that "Livewire" was my favorite. Then she said that she wanted to watch that one. Now that's the only one that she wants to watch. There are 18 episodes and she only wants to watch that 1. In November Superman Returns comes out, and we can watch that together. On that same day is a new 4 disc version of Superman the Movie, and a never before seen Director's cut of Superman II. I will definately be buying those. I gave Rylee my Superman and Superman II. She also loves Superman III and Superman IV, so I may have to buy those for her. I am also going to buy her Supergirl, because she has never seen it, and I believe that she will love it. I was thinking of being Superman for Halloween, but she said that Kenny was going to be Superman. I know that she is only 3, but I figure maybe she knows. I don't want to steal Kenny's thunder. I just think that she'd get a kick out of me being Superman. That is, if I can get a costume rental this late in the game.

Sorry this is so long, but I had to catch you all up. I'm sorry for Mrs. H. because she already knows all of this. I just couldn't think of anything else to write that she didn't know. I am in a hurry to go home and go to sleep.

A couple of things.
The new show HERO is awesome.
Battlestar Gallactica is starting the new season on Friday.
Smith is also another good show.

The other cute thing is that Rylee is now humming the Superman song. That makes me happy. I showed her the movies and she remembers the song. It's something that I gave her in a way.

Maybe when she's older and she has a boyfriend this scenerio will happen.

BOYFRIEND: What movie do you want to rent?
RYLEE: How bout Superman the Movie?
BOYFRIEND: That one made 20 years ago with Kevin Spacey?
BOYFRIEND: That real OLD one?
RYLEE: It's the best one. My uncle showed it to me when I was little.
BOYFRIEND: I don't know.....
(She smiles her cute smile, and looks up at him with her beautiful eyes.)

I will have touched someones life, and that would be awesome.

I love you all and let's hope that Rylee stays 3 forever.

Oh, something that I am excited about right now is that Casino Royale is going to be coming out on November 17th. I can't wait. I am a huge James Bond fan. Before a new James Bond movie comes out, I watch all the previous ones in order and then I go and see the new one. Right now I am ready to watch Goldfinger. I own 8 of the 007 movies, but I've rented the others from Just thought that I would let you know. Now I know that you are saying well if you are such a fan then why don't you own all 20? Well they pulled them before I could buy the others. I believe that around Christmas they will come out with a new set. I will pick them all up then.

While I was writing that I remembered something to tell you about. One of my employees Heath, pronounces tenants, tendants. At first I thought he was just tripping over his tongue, but then when he said again I realized that he's a fucking idiot. Speaking of him. He was on patrol the other day, driving in the patrol car and he ran over a huge rock in the road. It ripped the transmission fluid pan under the car, which then set off the AIR BAGS. I have no idea why the air bags went off, but it's probably going to be cheaper just to get a new car.

Ok, now I'm done. SO very sorry that it was so long.

Wow that's probably the only time that I will ever say that to women.

I love you all and hope that you have a glorious day.

Alway look on the bright side of life.

Saturday, September 16, 2006

Feeling pretty good......kinda

Well I haven't had a day off for over a week now. I am still looking for more workers. I find some, but they don't have guard cards. The other day the owners of the company had me meet with them over a cup of coffee. As I sat down they said, "Well, we have a couple more properties for you."

"Do you want them?"
Jokingly I said, "No, give them to Bryan in Mesa so he can drive all the way down here. Yes, of course I want them."
"It means more money."
"There's two of them, and they're small. Only an hour and a half patrol each a night. So 3 hours total. How about a dollar more?"
"Sounds good."

Now I'm making 15 dollars an hour. Very cool. I'm so happy. I am working alot more right now. This week I worked 53.5 hours. Next week I may be working 65 hours. The good news is that our business trip is coming up next Sunday. That'll be nice.

They told me Friday night that if my guys do good on this new patrol, that another property is going to be signing on. That will mean another 50 cents to a dollar raise. Very fucking cool. Soon it will all even out and I will actually have some days off.

I'm still working out, which I enjoy. My friend told me the other day that she was proud of me. That made me feel real good. It is difficult working out at noon, especially when sometimes I don't get off of work until 6am. I weighed myself on Friday and I am at 134 and a quarter. I started in June at 122. Larry says that my ideal weight is 175. That will be cool. My friend Serjio put it in perspective for me. He said that Mike Tyson's weigh in, in the day, was 170. He is 5' 11" and I am 5' 10". That is crazy to me, but I'm excited. I just have to keep eating and eating and eating.

That's my update. I'll talk to you all soon. I love you all, and have a wonderful day.

Enjoy life. Smell the roses. Enjoy the sunset.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Maybe a day off

I am thinking of taking Sunday off. I am not sure though. I have to sit down and look at my schedule. I believe that I could take one day off. The question is when. I want to take Mrs. H. and I out to eat sometime on or after Tuesday. I really could use the day off, but then again if I work then I don't have to work 11 hours on some of the days that I do work. I could stretch it out. Football is tomorrow. I really want to watch, but then again I just want to watch a movie and relax. I just don't know. I really need to hire more people then I don't have anything to worry about. I guess Frank isn't going on the San Diego trip. He just works to put in the hours, and that's it. It would be cool if he would go, but if not that's fine too. I'm sure we'll have a blast without him. It was nice to see you all today.

Funny thing about what I've created with Rylee.

1. Superman Returns movie trailer......"Can we see Superman save the plane?"

2. Superman Returns video game trailer......"He saved those people."

3. Superman The Movie......(Lex Luthor is hurting Superman with Kryptonite) "Turn it off.", she says as she backs away from the screen.

4. Superman II......"Is Superman gonna save that boy?"

5. Superman the Animated Series......My favorite is hers too.

6. Superman Returns in the theaters.......The smile on her face when Superman saved the plane was awesome for me. (THANKS)

7. Superman Returns Mouse, Keyboard, and Lunchbox......"You should buy that for me."

and now................................................

As we sat down at the computer Saturday night so she could watch the Superman Returns trailer, I sing the Superman Movie main theme song.

Then I stop.

"Sing Superman again."

"Let me find it online for us to hear."

"No, you sing it."

Gee, I wonder what happened next.

I sang the theme song.

Until I found it on itunes then we played the sample.

She loved it.

I'm thinking about buying the old television show from the 50's, it's only 20 dollars.

Or maybe a comic book or two.

I love her so much.

Thanks for listening, and have a wonderful day.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

No help yet, but a trip

I still haven't got any help. I am going to start going to the Walmart's and stuff to ask Security guards if they want to work part time or full time for us. So right now I'm working 7 days straight. We had a meeting the other day and I found out that we, the supervisors and owners, are going to a security convention in San Diego at the end of the month. I am very excited. This will be my first business trip ever. Very cool. We will leave on the 24th and come back on the night of the 26th.

As for other things in my life.

I was supposed to be having a baby when I'm 35, so that when he/she graduates high school, I will be 53.

My trip that I haven't went on is bumming me out a bit.

Not having a girlfriend is also a bummer.

My car not being to great is another thing that brings me down a bit, because I really want to go on trips around Arizona.

I am coping with all of this fine. I know that it's all of my own doing. Nobody can help me but me. I did have a really good conversation with Stephanie. She said that I am a great guy and that I should never change for anybody. She said I'm the most important person in her life. Above all else. Which made my month. I realize that I'm in a good place and I am very happy. Just sometimes I think of these things. Of course other things are that I'm going to a security conference and this isn't my vocational choice in life. I would love to be a writer or director, but this pays very well for now.

I love my friends and I am glad that you are in my life.

I'm sorry to unload on everyone, but I just wanted to let you know what was up.

Mrs. H. said that we may be spending too much time together and I believe that that may be true. I should stay at home more and just be me.

I realize that that may have sounded pathetic or whatever when it was all together, but it wasn't meant to be that way.

Thanks for reading.

I love you all.

Saturday, September 02, 2006


Several things are wanted.

A new employee or two.

Some rest for me.

Some days off (Kind of goes with the rest thing).

I'll just take it day by day the way that I have been. I put in adds for new employees, but no such luck. I have some people working on getting me people. The sooner the better. When I get all these things covered then I can take some time for myself. I need time to take care of the business side of work, and time to work out.

Speaking of working out. I now work out on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. I also work out with the owner of the gym, Larry. The cost is cheaper. The only thing that sucks is that it's at noon. It's hard to get up and get going after working until 5 or 6 in the morning. I am trying to work it all out. I am eating more and feeling good.

Then there's my birthday. I had so much fun. We swam, drank, and ate. Some of my friends didn't show up. That was fine they had good reasons. Shawn, Stephanie, Scott, and Colleen showed up which was cool because I wasn't sure if they would show up. It was so much fun. I thank you all for coming.

Soon things will all work out. All I can do is HOPE.

Today there is a small get together at Mrs. H. house. Some swimming and stuff. I will go home and go right to bed. I will hopefully get enough sleep before I go there and then to work by 9:30PM.

I love you all and thank you again.

Have a good day everyone.

Saturday, August 19, 2006

Working a bunch and hoping for less

Well, I just posted a job search on It's free and I hope someone calls me soon. I have 2 shifts available. One is Monday through Friday for 34 hrs., and the other is Friday and Saturday for 16 hrs. When that is filled then I will be able to meet with my clients and work less. I can then check on all my guys. I also put word out with one of my part timers who is a big time manager of another security company called Elite and he said that he will talk to some people.

I have one more week of working out and then I will probably sign up for 3 more months. Although Mary won't be joining me. Also, Larry has a laptop that he wants to sell me. It's a real nice Sony Viao, but I do already have a laptop. This one is real nice, and boy is it small. It's alot quicker than mine. The thing is that that's 1400 dollars. He said that he would take 700 down and 100 dollars a week. The thing with that is that if I want to sign up with his gym then I will have to use that money for the gym. What a dilemma.

The other thing that kind of adds to that is the fact that the owner of the company told me that if I want to buy a better car for myself, that he and the co-owner will help me. It would be a used car, but I would tell the co-owners stepfather what I want and then they would pay for it. I would then pay them back. How cool is that. I do like this job. So now what do I need more. The workout, the car, or the laptop? I think it's in that exact order that my priorities lie. I was thinking of telling the owners that I could get this nice laptop if they wanted to buy it for me. I will then take the one they gave me and give it to Frank. I'll figure it out.

Another thing is this moron that works for me. His name is Heath and he lost the gas card for the patrol car. Idiotic! Then while searching the car for the lost gas card, he hit his head on the windshield and cracked it. A big spider web type crack. Fucker! I can't wait to hire someone and move him to the bottom of the pile.

I went to Prescott the other day and had a good time with my dad and Larry. We ended up drinking too much and my dad missed work. Which then reflected back on me. We decided though that next time we go to a place we won't just hang out in the bars. Although, we did hang out in this old west style saloon. They had an old fashioned piano player. Too cool.

Tonight we are having a get together for Rob and Mei at the house. That will be fun. Except that I have to go to work tonight, but that's not that hard. The bad thing is that on Sunday morning I am supposed to go with dad, Larry, and Larry's aunt and uncle to eat lunch and then watch a movie at Larry's house. The thing that sucks is that then that night I may have to go to work. I am still waiting on one of my workers to call me about that.

The big thing is my birthday party on Saturday August 26th. Everyone will be there. Shawn, Mike, Serjio, Yvette, Talia, Serjio Jr., Rob, Mei, Dawn, Steph, Todd, Kenny, Stephanie, Scott, Mary, David, Kris, Taylor, and Rylee. Plus maybe some friends of Serjio and I's. I can't wait, I'm so excited.

Well I guess that's all. I was going to write something about the Jon Benet Ramsey case, but I am going to go to bed.

Like always, I love you all and have a good day.

Friday, August 11, 2006

Chillin, workin, and just plain having fun

Hello everyone. I still haven't gotten the weekends off, but I'm working on it. All I need to do is hire one more guy and then I'll be set. This week I will work 35.5 hours. That's fine, because I get paid for 40. I've just been watching DVDs, working, and hanging with my best friend. I'm sure that I bother her alot, but she still puts up with me. We had a good time tonight, as we do every time that we hang out. WOW, we are so full of ourselves. I'm writing this on the laptop that work gave me. I just watched several movie trailers and finished up my shows. Now I am going to go home and watch the Ultimate Avengers 2 and maybe The Bad News Bears. I have a meeting tomorrow with the owners of the company. They want to change the way we watch the Airport Hilton. That's fine with me. I think it's for the best. So far things are going great with work. I enjoy talking with the managers of the properties. I am still working out and loving it. We measured the other day again. My right arm went from 10 and 3/4 to 11 and 7/8, and my left arm went from 10 and 7/8 to 12. Pretty cool. I am still weighing about 128 lbs. Which is still 6 more pounds than when I first joined the gym. I am up on all my measurements. We are supposed to be finished at the end of this month, but I think that I may join for 3 more months.

I am having my birthday party on August 26th (my birthday), and everyone is invited. Bring the kids if you want. There will be swimming, and all that fun stuff. I am not sure about what time it starts, but let's say 6:30pm. It's at Mr. and Mrs. H. house. It should be fun. I may buy some Bud Light, but if you want something else you'll have to bring it. I can't believe that I'm going to be 35. WOW I'm old. Anyway, that's it for now. I'm going to go home now and watch a movie. I have to get up at 1:30 so I can meet with an apartment manager, then go train a guy at the Airport Hilton from 3 to 4, then meet with the owners for a meeting, and finally go to work at 11pm to 7am. All in a days work I guess.

Sorry if I bore you guys, or if I'm to all over the map. That's just me. When I die people will say, "Well, I don't know, he was just ........Phillip." SOB SOB CRY CRY BOO HOO.

I know that Mrs. H. is saying to herself, "Does that say S. O. B.? Because he is a son of a bitch."

No, it's Sob, like crying.

See you all, or talk to you soon.

Have a wonderful weekend everyone.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Everything's coming up roses

Ok, so here's the situation. My parents went away on a weeks vacation aaaaaaaaaaand they left the keys to their brand new porsche. Would they mind mmmmmmmm well of course not. I'll just take it for a little spin....... Sorry, that was "Parents just don't understand".

Here's the REAL story.

On Sunday, the supervisors had a meeting with the owners. Now, there's me, Frank, and John. John has worked for the owners since they started the company. He just now decided that he will be a supervisor. So we have this meeting and the owners start by saying that there will no longer be a golden day program. We ask what that is and he tells us that it means that we will not be having our set days off. Plus they say that I am taking all of the work for this side of town. Meaning that I do the schedules and try to cover other properties myself. They said that that will stop. "No offense, but it's not working out." I explain that that is fine. They then lay it on us, the new plan.................

John will take care of South Mountain Patrol and some other properties. I will take care of Alliance Patrol, Embassy Suites, Airport Hilton, the Buttes (when they need us), Moon Valley, Cavan Commercial, and possibly a new account out on Dysart and I-10. Then Frank will get all the guard houses, and Sunscape Villas. Now Bryan who is a supervisor on the East side of town covers everything himself, and the owners never get a call from him. He doesn't even work 40 hours a week, but he gets paid 40 hours a week. Basically Salary, but for me, 40 hours at 14 dollars a week. So basically if someone calls off, then I will work for them. Or if I was short on people I would have to work until it was filled. The cool thing for me is that I have pretty much everything filled. The way I figure it, I'll work about 17 hours and get paid for 40. HOW FUCKING COOL IS THAT SHIT? Of course I'll have to take care of the patrol car, and maybe meet with the mangers of the properties every once in awhile. Very cool. I will have the weekends off, unless someone calls off, and will be able to hang with my friends.

Now here's the kicker.

If we do get that parking account, then it will go to me because it's on my side of town. If that happens, I will get another dollar raise. That will take me up to 15 dollars an hour. What ever accounts they add to my side of town, I will get another dollar an hour raise. The bad thing is that if I lose an account, then I will get a dollar deducted from my pay. Very good incentive. I am happy and thankful for a wonderful job like this. The best thing of all is if I fill that 17 hours a week, then I don't have to work at all. I will get paid 40 hours no matter what. I just maintain the properties and keep the guys in line.

Also the bosses gave me several comments about how Frank leaned on me alot when we were both supervisors of the same property, and how much I was doing before. That made me feel good.

I am a happy camper.

Speaking of camping. I could do that if I want on my days off.

I still have to answer the phone 7 days a week. What price FREEDOM?

No to answer some people.

Diva Princess- I may be hanging out with my friend Joe on Thursday, but I will see. I will have to work 6 hours on that day, but it can be anytime between 6PM to 6AM. Oh, that was a little sappy, but it always makes me feel good to hear people talk good about me.

Dakini- No problem. You didn't wake me up. I was just killing a kitten when you called. IT'S A JOKE! I'm sorry that I couldn't help you. I would've liked to.

Mrs. H.- Don't worry, I know that you have family. I can respect that. I'm an only child, I can think of something to do.

Love you all and thank you for the kind words.

Friday, July 28, 2006

Time for change and good things to come

So I trained Chip for the 4 day patrol, which left me with a 3 day patrol to fill. Well the saints they are a shining down on me. Tuesday night after my work out, I was on my way home and Heath called me. He is a guy that had worked with us for about a week. He was a good guy, but ended up quitting when he felt that we were disorganized. One of the co-owners kept telling me to call him and see if he wanted to help out on the Alliance Patrol. That's what I call it because the three properties are owned by Alliance. So now it's Tuesday and I'm getting a call from Heath. I'm thinking that maybe his check was messed up or something. I asked him what the problem was. He said that nothing was wrong but he heard about the patrol that we have. I said that we started a new patrol and explained it to him. I told him that Gary had wanted me to ask him if he was interested. He said, "Well I think you know the answer to that." Now I'm thinking that it's got to be no, because of what he said about us being disorganized. So I say, "Yeah I figured." He says, "When can I start?" I was so excited and I explained that I thought that he wouldn't want to work for us. The reason I was excited was because after I would train him on Wednesday, then I can have off Thursday and Friday. How cool is that? The other thing is that I covered all of my west side properties. I have everyone in place. That means that I can now focus on doing supervisor type managerial work. That means that I can work maybe during the day or earlier at night. That would keep me available for work stuff during the day. Very cool.

Now I have that all figured out, and I am pretty much covered at the Airport Hilton. Then I just have to worry about maybe 2 other properties and all is right with the world. Once again, things are going great.

As for other things in my life........
There isn't anything else. All I do is play with Rylee and hang out with Kris. Which is a blast and don't get me wrong, because I love it. I did go see Clerks II with Joe tonight. Joe is my friend of 28 years. We had fun. In fact we are going to see Miami Vice tomorrow. Well on Friday. I'm writing this early. That should be cool. Joe stopped at his old work and Casey, an old friend of ours, said that he would like to go to the movie with us. He is wishy washy though. He's bailed on us before. If he goes cool, but if he doesn't that's fine. We will have fun. I am still enjoying my ipod immensely. I saw a cool preview for the new Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles movie that's coming out. It looked awesome. It's all CGI and stuff. I've got Rylee now addicted to movie trailers. She keeps telling me that she wants to see Superman save the plane. We also watch Pirates and other trailers. I think that I am going to bring over the original Superman movies for her to watch. I think that she would enjoy them. I may do that tomorrow. Well on Friday. I guess that is all. On Friday I have to go see Teresa a manger of North Ridge apartments. She is supposed to give me keys and some other things for the patrol of her property. Then I have to make a copy of the key for the patrol car. After that I am free to go to the movie or watch Superman with Rylee. Should be fun. Then to the movies with Joe. I am going to go home right now and watch a movie or some Superman cartoons. I'm sorry that this whole thing is so long, but Mrs. H. wanted me to write something so I did.

Hugs and kisses everyone!

Monday, July 24, 2006

Weird days

I started the new patrol on Thursday. It is a real easy patrol. I listened to my Dane Cook cds. Then on Friday I started to head to work. I was supposed to be there at 3. Well Frank called and said that I didn't have to go in. They had someone else to work. I was like cool. Then I thought, "Well, hell, I'm going to stop and get something to eat." I stopped at my favorite diner, Country Boys. I went there and got a dinner for 4.49. It was country fried steak, mashed potatos, cottage cheese and a dinner roll. What a deal. During that the co-owner called me and said that he would like me to meet with the managers at the properties that I patrol. I agreed to do it. This is what I wish that I could do all the time. This is what they would like us to do instead of working the properties. That would be fine with me. Anyway, I met with all the managers and then met chip to train him for the patrol. It was an easy training job, because it's so easy. It's one of those patrols that you say, "I can't believe that I'm getting paid 14 dollars an hour to drive around and listen to the radio." Very cool. After the patrol, I went home and went to bed. On Saturday I was up and at work by 3pm. I then went and finished my shift at the Embassy Suites. That day I worked 14 hours. I got off at 5am and went to Walmart to buy some movies and some strawberries for my protein shakes. I have been bad and not drinking my shakes this weekend like I should. I feel bad. After that I went home, talked to Rob, had a beer, and went to bed. I came to work on Sunday at 3pm and ended up working until 7am. A 16 hour shift. Now I am finishing that.

Now the pretty cool thing is that I'm on my laptop right now writing this in the lobby of the hotel. How swanky. The company gave me a laptop and it has wyfi or whatever and can get internet in hotspots. There are hotspots in the hotel, but you have to pay to get online. I paid 10 bucks for the day. I surfed the internet earlier, but now after I write this I am going home and that will be the end of the 10 dollars. I guess that I could go to coffee houses or bookstores and get online in a hotspot. Now the cool thing about working 30 hours in the first 2 days of the week is that I still am scheduled for 3 more 10 hour days. That means 60 hours this week. That's 20 hours overtime at 21 dollars an hour. How fucking cool is that.

I spoke to my old friend Shawn the other night. I was telling him how things are going my way and all that stuff. He is the one that used to be the drug dealer. He was making alot of money a dealing to big people like Korn. He was big and muscular and he felt cool. Now he's fat, drunk, and feels like somewhat of a loser. It was quite funny the way we were picking on the way he used to be. He invited me to Thanksgiving and I accepted. He said that I have an open invitation. It'll be nice to see those people again.

It appears that I won't be having my 4 days off like I used to. I will get 3 days off so that's okay. Soon when I have all the schedules filled I will be working during the day in more of supervisorial type of way. I can't wait. I just have to fill some spots.

Okay, well it's 7:21 and I was off at 7. I will talk to you all later. I hope you enjoyed the update. I am off Monday and Tuesday of this week. Then next week I am off Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. That will be awesome to be off on a Friday. I can actually hang out with Serjio.

I love you all. Everyone take care.

To all you women......I give your boobs a squeeze. ;)