Tuesday, January 31, 2006
Asking for FORGIVENESS
As I was doing my security patrol at the church the other day, I decided to go into the chapel and pray. I thought that I would ask for forgiveness for driving away after hitting the dog from my previous post. I don't really believe in GOD, but I thought that it couldn't hurt. I am more agnostic than atheist. I thought that maybe if I was shown a sign then I would now that God existed and I would have forgiveness. The church was empty and I went to the front, kneeled down, and prayed. I asked from my heart and hoped that it would matter.
2 hours later when I was at another job site, I started to have a sore throat. Now at first I was like, "Oh great, I got that flu thing that everyone's getting." Then it hit me. What if it was GOD that made me have a sore throat and get sick with the flu. My punishment for driving away and letting other people handle the problem that I caused. God maybe can't forgive me just like that, he has to make me suffer. I have to understand that what I did was wrong. Then again, I don't really believe in GOD. I would need some kind of proof that he was doing this. It does make sense that he could do this. Although, the argument against it could be that everybody has had this flu thing already. I might have caught it anyway, whether I hit the dog or not.
Who's to say what it is? All I know is that I am sorry for not stopping and checking on the dog. I just should have delt with the problem myself.
They say that you learn from your mistakes, and I know I have.
To the readers out there. I hope that you can forgive me.
I love you all.
Have a nice day.