Saturday, April 21, 2007

Crazy Mixed Up World and Other Shit


The killings on Monday at Virginia Tech are being blamed on violent games and movies. That's Bullshit. I think CRAZY may have alot to do with it. Fucking fucked up. That's where it came from. Hong Kong Fuey, as Howard Stern calls him, was a lonely fucked up individual. He was a stalker and a loner. He kept to himself. The teachers knew that he was OFF because of the things that he wrote and the way he was. Nobody did a damn thing about it. Well they told somebody, but it didn't go any further than that.

I was listening to CNN last night on satellite and Glenn Beck said that FAMILY is the cause of these things and not Video games or movies. I agree, but then again I believe the Columbine killer and his family were close. He ended up killing them, but I believe that they were close. The point is that Hong Kong Fuey was crazy and it wasn't the media that made it that way. Although, I do believe that youtube is a smudge on human society. People are trying to be noticed on youtube by doing crazy stuff. Not necessarily killing people but doing crazy stunts or singing silly songs. In a way it could be a good thing because there are people with talent out there. The bad thing is that everyone is doing weird stuff to be noticed. It's mostly the Republicans that are saying it's video games and movies that are causing the violence. I heard something today about the Columbine shooters and how they had trench coats and guns and must have gotten that from the Matrix. The point was that they had the image, but not the content. Anyway, enough of that.

Today I heard a good thing on the news. A Bradley tank was going around a parked car in Bagdad and accidentally knocked over part of a brick wall. They went to the house to pay the owner for the damage, but he was gone. Turns out he was making IUDs and other bombs in his house. They found remote controls for the IUDs and several other instuments of evil. I'm glad that they found it, but the bad thing is that they accidentally found it.

Now about my life. I went to Chino Valley last weekend. It was a nice drive and a cool little town. I hung out with my aunt and uncle and then hung out with Brad and Sara (My cousin and her husband). It was so quiet up there. I really enjoyed myself alot. I played with Sinjalee and got to hold Sedona (Sara's kids). They are so cute. Sinjalee loves slides so I made a slide out of my legs and my body. She loved that. She would throw her hands in the air and clap. She even did the high five thing. Very cute. I want to go back. I am going to either buy her a little slide like Rylee has, or buy Rylee's. I think Sinjalee would love it. I have to make sure that I have someone taking my calls while I'm gone. That's what I did for the weekend that I was out of town. I looked through several photos with my aunt and heard some good stories of the family. That was nice. So quiet up there. The bad thing is that they may be moving to either Florida or Pine. That would be cool, but right now it's a nice place that I have to go to when I want to get out of town.

Now for today.

Last night I hung out with Kris and her family and watched shows. It was nice. I couldn't stay too long because I had to work at 7am. I watched an episode of the Office and a show called Thank God you're here. The office was funny, but I have to give Thank God you're here another chance. The one I watched wasn't that funny. Then I went home and was going to take a bath. It was 4am and I felt that that would be good for me to relax, take a bath, and then go to work. I made the mistake of laying down and resting. Then I got up and was going to take my bath at 5am, but didn't feel like it. I laid down and set my alarm for 6:05am. My alarm went off and I turned it off. I of course meant to get up right away, but fell back to sleep. Next thing I know it was 7:41am. I HAD OVERSLEPT!!!!!!!!! That sucked. I had to rush over here to 64th St. and Camelback. I got here at 8:15am. 1hr and 15 minutes late. Luckily there were no messages or lines of people to get into the gated community. It just sucks because now I have to tell Keith and Gary on Monday and the Officer in charge of the guardhouse when he relieves me at 3pm. Oh well. I really need to work on being on time for shit. It pisses me off. Things like this could lose us this account.

Now Kris will be gone for several days. I just don't know what to do. I'm sure I'll figure something out. The good thing for me right now is that I only work on Wednesday and Thursday for 10 hours each day. I still get paid for my 40 hours so that's nice. Kris said that I could come by today and watch some more of our shows, but then I have to go when Dave gets back home. I will be able to catch up on all my movies that I haven't watched yet. The new ones.

Speaking of movies. I just watched World Trade Center. It was very good. Of course not as good as United 93, but it was good. Before that I watched a japanese movie and some other stuff that I can't remember. As I sat here writing this I watched some I love lucys, Charlie's Angels movie, and now one of my favorites.....The Mexican. This guardhouse not only has internet but also cable t.v. That is all for now. I believe you are all caught up now.

Oh one more thing. The picture at the top of this post is from the movie Grindhouse. It is 2 movies in one and it is really cool. It's like the exploitation movies of the 70's and 80's. Very cool.

I love you all. Have a very good day and a better weekend.

Friday, April 13, 2007

My friend

I know that you are all going to say that that's all I do is write about my friend. I can't help it we are close. I am here to appologize.

The other day out of sillyness I said that she was heartless for making jokes of my dead mother. That is totally not the case. I've told her that I was joking and that I didn't mean it. She said that I was half joking. I KNOW that she cares very much. I also understand that the way we joke is the way we joke. Nothing is too taboo. I love her very much and she knows it. We have been friends for 18 years and I wouldn't have it any other way.

I want to say that I was NOT serious about you being heartless. I was going through mixed feelings the other day and I am over it now. We had a talk and you are right as always. I appreciate everything you do for me. I enjoy that you let me be part of your family. That means so much to me. I love you and I would DIE FOR YOU. LOL!

I have to go now. I'm running low on battery power sitting in your drive way using your internet at 6:54 in the morning. I believe that I am going to finish getting the car legal, the oil changed, and then I will go to Chino Valley. Who knows though. Maybe I'll go tomorrow. I'd love to take you out to eat tonight. Let me know.

You are not heartless. Your love is immeasurable.
Thank you for always being you. I love it.

Tuesday, April 10, 2007

Something's wrong with the world today. I don't know what it is.

Where to start. I finally had some days off which I told you guys about. That has been real nice. I will probably go out of town next weekend to see my aunt and cousin. My cousin just had another baby. I can't wait to just get out of town. It will be so nice. I work this week on Wednesday and Thursday. I will be meeting with my clients tomorrow. Regular supervisor type of stuff. Right now I'm relaxing at Kris' house with a beer and I'm writing this. I will then go home and either watch a movie or go to bed. So now here's what I've wanted to talk about.

The other day on satellite radio on CNN Headline news they were talking about the way Rosie O'Donell is talking bad about the way the government is ran. She says these things on a show called the View. Now the view is a show where women talk about their views on things. She talks about how Bush isn't doing a good job or how Guantanimo Bay isn't being ran right. She tells how she feels about these subjects. I happen to agree with most of the things that she says. Now on the radio a guy was calling her a traitor for saying what she says. Oh excuse me mister head in your ass, but we live in the United States of America. This is the land of the free and the home of the brave. If you don't like it then move. The problem is that most people are so into their own political group that it can't be any other way. The man speaking was a Republican and Rosie obviously is a Democrat. Maybe you don't believe in any of the things she says, but still I would hope that you would fight for her right to say it. There is never a middle of the road type person that can say that they believe in one group or the other. One bashes the other and vice versa. It's crazy shit. We should be able to say what we want, when we want. We don't live in a repressed society that governs what we think. Fuck these people who don't believe we should go against the grain, but HOORAY for them for having the right to say it. Although, words are nothing without the actions behind them to do something.

The other thing is religion. I am not a "religious man", but I am spiritual. I believe that we are living creatures. Do onto others as you would have done to you. If you are good of heart then you are a good man. What I don't like is that you can't talk to one religious group about another, because they will shoot down their ideals and stand by their own. They are always the right and proper way to think. I am more of a Buddhist at heart. I think that if you have a faith, it can not be shook. Your convictions should be so great that you will never faulter from what you believe. Therefore you could go into another groups church or have a theological discussion with somebody of the other faith and all would be fine. That is not the case. Fucking ridiculous. When my mom died I had a memorial service. One of my good friends could not show up because she is Johova Witness. She was not allowed to step foot in a church, or whatever. That was fine and I knew that she cared and sent her love. The next thing that happened was that that persons father died and a friend of both of ours came to the memorial service, but he couldn't come inside because he is Jewish and is some sort of high priest and is not allowed to see any dead bodies unless they are his parents or something. We met him outside and he shared his love and that he cared as well. My thought on the subject is this. If GOD all caring, all knowing, and all loving then I think that he would allow you to pay your respects to the deceased by going into any type of denominations church or building. WWJD? From what I've read and heard, Jesus was a caring and kind man. If you were to ask Jesus what to do, I believe that he would say to go and care for the grieving person. You would all have great hearts and be at one with faith. That is the way that I see it. This is why I do not care for organized religion. I am still on that search in my life for the one that speaks to me. Don't know if I believe in GOD, but somethings really make me wonder. Such beautiful things that in a way, could not be created by a big bang. WHO KNOWS?

Here's the other thing.

Lee Marvin, Clint Eastwood, John Wayne, Steve McQueen, and our fathers. These are, and were, real men. There was just something about the way things were. The 50's, 60's, 70's, and from forever men were men. Now I'm all for equality, but somethings may be melting into eachtother. Hence the Metrosexual. It's ridiculous. A few months ago I was talking to my dad about how I wanted to watch this movie called Brokeback Mountain. I said that I hadn't seen it but heard that it was good. He said, "that movie about the faggots?" I said that it was suppose to be good. He then said, "John Wayne would have never done a movie where he played a faggot." I asked, "Well what if it was real good script and a good part?" He said, "John Wayne would never play a faggot. Nobody would go to see that movie." I agreed that John Wayne would have never done that movie. The movie sucked anyway. Another story that I heard on a making of Close Encounters of the Third Kind was Steven Speilberg saying that he wanted to have Steve McQueen in the part that was played by Richard Dreyfuss. He sat down and talked about the movie to Steve McQueen. McQueen read the script. After reading the script, McQueen said, "I can't do this movie." Speilberg asked, "Why not?" "Because the character cries in it. My fans have never seen me cry." James Cagney, Humphrey Bogart, and others were tough men. Granted some of it was the characters they played. Cagney was the nicest and funniest guy in the world and was short. Bogart though was a drinker and I'm sure a fighter. The point is that real men have faded away. I think that that's why people look up to fire fighters because they are as close to real men as we can get in todays society. The HEROES of 9/11 are the fire fighters. You watch the movies that are out now and there are no real tough guys in them. The movie 300 was a great example of tough guy society. When you were born they would have a high priest or something look at you as a baby. If you appeared to be a good fighter,strong willed, and a good body then they would keep you and you would train to be a Spartan. THE BEST OF THE BEST. If you seemed weak they through the baby off of the cliff. Of course I am the last one that should be talking about this. You are all thinking, "Well how come Phillip's not dead at the bottom of a cliff then." I would love to be a tough guy. My father's been in bar fights and motorcycle wrecks. The thing with my father is that he is good at heart. He used to be the way I am now, but I believe he changed into who he is now when he went to the military and then Brigg. Of course I always say that men are forged in the heat of battle. Maybe if I were pushed into a situation I would be a tough guy. I don't know. I can't really explain what I mean. Then there's things like today. I was told that Mary and Kris are going for Pedicures next Monday, and I said well maybe I'll get one done. Now I am far from gay, but my grandfather had always told me that pedicures and manicures are great. They treat you like a king he said. I miss my grandfather. I miss my grandmother too. I miss my mom every day. Sorry. Anyway there aren't very many real tough guys anymore. I guess tough guys are like real boobs, very hard to find in the world today.

Don't know if any of that made sense to you, but oh well. I got it off of my chest.

I should really go home now. I've been writing this thing for awhile.

I love you guys. Sorry to bore you.

Monday, April 09, 2007

It's been too long

I could not get into my blogger account because I couldn't remember any of my sign in and password. Well now I'm in, with some help from Mrs. H. I have so much to write about. Just observations in general. I am tired now though and am going to write a little. I'll write more tomorrow.

Things I need to talk about are as follows:
Religion
The human race
Real men
and some other things that I can't think of right now.

Anyway, I finally got some days off this weekend. I am so happy. Who knows how long it will last. I am off next weekend as well. Here's to me.

I love you all and I hope that you love me.